Who doesn't know that u have no flaws?!
*please stop breathing!!*
Which of u being so egoistic can still know deep inside u that u have flaws
*please stop breathing!!*
Great... all men knows that they have flaws...
So do i!
So.. last thing i'll ever need is for someone to put a crown on me and tell me that i'm a princess and then later tell me how sucky i am!!!
I hate it when bad things happen... so much so.. that for things that i do.. i often take precaution.
For the 1st 6 months that i was with Ken, we been through a lot!!
SOOOoooo much!!!
many shitty stuffs...
But for many of those times, i know i'll treat him like shit.. so.. when he wants to come to NTU, i told him no! When he wants to do things for me... i said NO!
And i even initiated a break up... as i know my heart cannot entirely be with him... but he said.. he know.. and he wanted to continue... cos... he likes me.. and he has faith that i'll treat him as nice as i treat CK one day...
SO... now.. i'm pissed... not because i am being blamed for treating him bad...
WEll, i admit and i know that i was a lousy gf... But... just as i'm treating him nice.. he do things that upsets me.. then give me the reason that everything has its lag time. When i question why didn't he do sucky thing to me.. when i treated him bad.. Why is it that now that i'm treating him better that he upsets me?!
And his reason for him doing things that upset me.. is because i have no time for him. And that i used to upset him so much that he's unknowingly doing things which upsets me... I can understand that i do upset him... But it doesn't give him a reason to do things to upset me... Not when what i can infere from what is says is that...
*in future: " u r too busy for me?! that's why i need to find company with other people/affair... Think about it!"
If he's gonna keep using what i did to him for the 1st 6 months against me.. i can jolly well be a slave to him... And then perhaps i can make use of how now that we are both in love yet he's doing stuff to make me upset as a reason for all shit that i can throw to him! And i will say..." Well, i doni't practise lag time!"
I hate it when i'm blamed for something that he promise on...
I hate it when i'm blamed for something i take precaution about...
I hate it when i'm pampered and coax like a princess.. then tell me how sucky i am...
If u really love me... don't injure me like this... tell me my faults...
My friend all tell me my faults.. they don't hurt me like that!!
And who doesn't know that he/she has faults?!
tell me?!!
JS said: "Show me someone without flaws, and i'll show you the pot of gold at the end of the rainbow!"
I feel so hurt... 3rd time... in such a short time. I see what kinda shit i can get from him... What can i do next?!
The greatest hurt comes when " u make me fly! then u took away my wings! "
~AuRo`Na~
Tuesday, October 24, 2006