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Ken Soh got beaten up by me...

Monday, October 30, 2006

I was so angry.. i don't even know if i should call that emotion as being angry...

nvm.. he picked up a girl on the train, with the simple topic of a thumb drive!

WTF!

I mean.. he's this kind.. i don't believe that people should never ever change.. but rather change at the appropriate time..

And it's natural and only right.. i feel, in my point of view.. that for a guy...

after u have a girlfriend.. u should stop talking to stranger GIRL... and that u should not be exchanging numbers and watever all so often.. or perhaps.. not even do it...

It's not about right or wrong.. not about values.. but something that one should ought to do in order to show sincerity and love.. or watever crap isn't it so?!

And for a girl, not to go around flirting and giving away numbers.. or never to approach stranger man to initiate a chat.. i mean.. really strangers... co-workers and friend's friend's.. acquaintance in some socail gatherings and stuff. i can understand.. but not some girl who approach u on the internet or some girl who is holding on to a thumb drive! KEN THAT BUGGER!!!

yeah yeah yeah.. he picked me up.. but he was single.. i maybe even desperate!

Doing such a thing now, that he's with me...wth... telling me that i'm of no value..

and that i'm so bloody busy.. he has to chat up with other people...

he gives reasons that he does not differentiate friends... so.. it doesn't matter if it's a guy or a girl.. who the hell cares.. if u have a bf or u have a gf, u jolly well.. BEHAVE! yourself.. watch ur actions!!

bloody hell...

i was so *don't know what kinda feeling * that i just hit him anyhow...

pain?! i don'tknow.. but u should know that my strength is not that small lla... hor... get it?!

3 shit on 3 weekend.. how to carry on?!

He claimed that he didn't know that it'll hurt so much.. now that he knows.. he won't do it...

I know he has no ill intention, but the actions is not forgivable.. because he doesn't behave.. and... hey hey.. tel u pepps something he said.. got me so fumed up!

he said:" i'm sorry, i didn't mean to hurt u with my actions.. though they have NO ILL INTENTION.."

who the hell does this kinda apology with an * behind telling u that i'm apologising so that can make u feel better.. but i'm not in the wrong.. cos i didn't know... What a bf i have... gosh!

~AuRo`Na~
Monday, October 30, 2006

last thing i need...

Tuesday, October 24, 2006

Who doesn't know that u have no flaws?!

*please stop breathing!!*

Which of u being so egoistic can still know deep inside u that u have flaws

*please stop breathing!!*

Great... all men knows that they have flaws...

So do i!

So.. last thing i'll ever need is for someone to put a crown on me and tell me that i'm a princess and then later tell me how sucky i am!!!

I hate it when bad things happen... so much so.. that for things that i do.. i often take precaution.

For the 1st 6 months that i was with Ken, we been through a lot!!

SOOOoooo much!!!

many shitty stuffs...

But for many of those times, i know i'll treat him like shit.. so.. when he wants to come to NTU, i told him no! When he wants to do things for me... i said NO!

And i even initiated a break up... as i know my heart cannot entirely be with him... but he said.. he know.. and he wanted to continue... cos... he likes me.. and he has faith that i'll treat him as nice as i treat CK one day...

SO... now.. i'm pissed... not because i am being blamed for treating him bad...

WEll, i admit and i know that i was a lousy gf... But... just as i'm treating him nice.. he do things that upsets me.. then give me the reason that everything has its lag time. When i question why didn't he do sucky thing to me.. when i treated him bad.. Why is it that now that i'm treating him better that he upsets me?!

And his reason for him doing things that upset me.. is because i have no time for him. And that i used to upset him so much that he's unknowingly doing things which upsets me... I can understand that i do upset him... But it doesn't give him a reason to do things to upset me... Not when what i can infere from what is says is that...

*in future: " u r too busy for me?! that's why i need to find company with other people/affair... Think about it!"

If he's gonna keep using what i did to him for the 1st 6 months against me.. i can jolly well be a slave to him... And then perhaps i can make use of how now that we are both in love yet he's doing stuff to make me upset as a reason for all shit that i can throw to him! And i will say..." Well, i doni't practise lag time!"

I hate it when i'm blamed for something that he promise on...

I hate it when i'm blamed for something i take precaution about...

I hate it when i'm pampered and coax like a princess.. then tell me how sucky i am...

If u really love me... don't injure me like this... tell me my faults...

My friend all tell me my faults.. they don't hurt me like that!!

And who doesn't know that he/she has faults?!

tell me?!!

JS said: "Show me someone without flaws, and i'll show you the pot of gold at the end of the rainbow!"

I feel so hurt... 3rd time... in such a short time. I see what kinda shit i can get from him... What can i do next?!

The greatest hurt comes when " u make me fly! then u took away my wings! "

~AuRo`Na~
Tuesday, October 24, 2006

my hair's wet..

My hairs wet.. so i decide to tell you what happen over the weekend...

I would like to say that i'm so unfilial... argh.. Friday's my mum's birthday...And i spent the night... quarreling with Ken...

Anyway... let me tell you what ken did...

First as u all know that Ken was communicating with this girl... And today, i mean friday, Ken took one step further...

He met up with her... *i know her name but i'm not gonna say it... Cos it'll pissed me off!* Anyway, He met up with her, and played game and had dinner.

When i called him, he picked up the phone and told me to meet him at the foodcourt. So i went, and i saw her there. * i was hoping that it's not her and some other friend instead* But wala.. it's her...

i didn't do anything.. but said: " ken, i mean what i said!"

And i left...

He pursued and urgh.. so sucky to say all these things out... wth....

Anyway.. i was angry.. disappointed.. and upset... urgh...

but now i'm fine le... Ken, please don't upset me again!!! please....

~AuRo`Na~
Tuesday, October 24, 2006

woohoo...a tribute to CK...

Monday, October 16, 2006

well.. have u ever wonder why is CK called CK?! or why some words end with CK.. that is so.. we can easily recognise a person's character or... fins adjectives to describe a person...

for example... Fuck U C K...
and... also Stupid U C K...

these are works to describe or watever.... haven't u even realise?!
Well, ask me then.. i'm on person knowleable in this field.. because i have contactd with to many people call CK...
first, my ex... C K... he suck big time...
Then... my driving instructor Tan C K...
tthen my lecturer, K.. CK...

It is a wonder why all these CK sucks.. till i unreveal the mystery...
Anyway.. these are the contents which make me wanna pay a tribute to him...

Anyway.. my ex doesn't even dare tell his Cassandra that he always like to contact this girl call Elena who happens to be his ex. He dare not tell his Cassandra that i'm right beside him when i am... pushing the question again and again.. just like in the past... unlucky little petite little air stewardess... Fern.. if u happen to see Cassandra... let her know how she's kept in the dark.. and tell her that there are much better guys out there for her *just kidding.. we shouldn't mind bizness too much*

Oh yeah... CK is a big mouth who tells people about my stuffs... tell my stuffs to his friends. . whom his friend told me about htat... and i swear.. to minimise any contact with him ever... cos he suck too much!?! wth... like a girl.. go bitching about... *we can be pardon if we are girl, women, ladies... but him.. no!!!! cos he always like to be a man.. a very very egoistic man....

anyway, why did he scold me childish?! because i once asked him how much does Cassandra earn a month, so he asked me why i asked...

So i said... i can't get my aspiratoin of being an air stewardess.. so i aim to earn more than an air-stewardess.

So he said.. i bo liao?! well, in life, we always work hard. And if u can't be something, to make urself feel better of course u work in a different way to be better than what u initially wanted but can't get... right?!!?

so... wth...
um.. well, here goes... the bright blue one belongs to him.. the other one--me!

contd:

contd(last one)

well... He's a loser i feel.. no more feelings attached to this idiot.. i promise!

*disclaimer: don't mean to offend anyone else who's initial is CK, so my apologies... unless u deserved to be called a bastard.

~AuRo`Na~
Monday, October 16, 2006

another shit from ken...

Sunday, October 15, 2006

i was talking to him last night.. and was like.. throwing things out.. to make him feel bad and awful and blah blah blah... i told him that i called CK to tell him stuffs...well, i didn't only call him.. but many other people as well... shunz... talked to thip, orange... so. CK was just someone else to talk to.. and i took the opportunity to scold him.. telling him tha ti dont' wanna be nice to Ken.. just in case he takes me for granted... like how HE USED TO DO!!! i was so pissed off.. i wanted to even call Zhixian... ahah.. shit... so that we can bitch and bad-mouth about ken together!

He said that "i don't even contact my ex".... --with GREAT confidence and pride!

Then... at 1.30pm. Zhixian called him... and he only picked up the phone call... and said"it's ok.. nothing already!"

then i was puzzled.. so i asked.. who's that.. and he said "Zhixian"

WTF!

dont' tell me this kinda crap with so much confidence.. just to let me know that u did even call her! POT CALLING THE KETTLE!

tamade!

Say so much about me... contacting my ex... then u call only Zhixian.. wtf... it feels like Zhixian can understnad and know u so well that u call no one else but her! I fucking kill him!

~AuRo`Na~
Sunday, October 15, 2006

stupid Ken Soh

He tried to explain and justify.. which is useless.. all me.. and my friends and my gf... all thinks that that's not justifiable!

He finally came to apology... but... wasn't really forgiven...

He said that he didn't do anything out of the way or put in more effort to get things done for that girl... but...

i told him that it's not about what she did... but rather... what u did as a man.. who willingly reciprocated...

That suck.. she's young... and it feels like some hum sup lao beh beh.. trying ot be nice to some young girl......wth....

I think it's even better if that girl is 23/24.. there's actually more reasons for him to make a friend...

i know.. there should not be any limits and boundaries and blah blah blah...... but then.. this only shows how easily u can make a friend...

His age of making friend the way he did was long over... and that now he has a gf... he has no right to go around flirting and making friends just like that.. Just like when i started getting serious.. i do not go online and start being friends with people... i stop all those contact i have online... See...

I told him that it is normal to make friends online.. but not when u have a gf or bf.... how will the other party feel?! right?! and it certainly feels sucky that it was the time when we really did get together. and as though the relationship was in adequate.... sucky!

~AuRo`Na~
Sunday, October 15, 2006

after talking to orange...

After talking to orange.. i decided to give ken another chance....

Only to find greater dissapointment.

I was outside his door, his slippers were gone. I called his bro, as i saw that his room's light were off.

his bro:" my brother is sleeping"

me:" can u open the door for me?"

He opened the door, everyone was looking at me.

I walked in, went into his room and tada... bed was empty.

He can even lie... "Great job!" i msged Ken.

~AuRo`Na~
Sunday, October 15, 2006

thank u QUEK!

Saturday, October 14, 2006

Ah quek is so nice... such a darling... she stated that i have my darling KEn with me.. but i doubt so...

read the older blog... "in memory... Ken"

This is an entry to say thanks to my quek...

Well, that's why i always tell ken that Moocha is the best... and it really is...

I won't be talking to ken so some time.. i haven't talk to hi since i sorta chased him out of the house loast night... I mean.. i can understand if he met up with some girlfriends or even eX, i think it's no big prob... at most i'll throw a little tantrum and then forget it.. with a littel mubble here and there.. but for this matter... I feel utterly disappointed with him!!!!

And i just had a fight on MSN with CK... what the fuck!?! life sucks!?! sat 14th isn't too good for me.....

so again... QUEK ROX !!!

KEN SUCKS!

~AuRo`Na~
Saturday, October 14, 2006

in memory of Ken Soh

I feel so great now...

These few days, i'm just getting started to give in to Ken, love him more and accompany him homr more often then usual.

Life wasn't good in the past but now it's go great to feel in love with him.

Yesterday saw this girl's number in his ph. Well, i didn't check on him, but just that i saw it when he was reading his msgs... And he's nice... always being very frank to me... he told me that this girl whom he got a msg from was a 17 year old girl.

He met her on friendster. She was the one who sent him a msg. And then i think she left him her number. That was about 2-3 months ago.*me n ken was really on great terms since only june.

And when i asked if he met her before. He said yes. Once at PS. Wow.... such a great boyfriend i have... he met up with a girl whom approached him online. Well done.

I'm so in love with ken!

FUCK! CHEE BYE!

~AuRo`Na~
Saturday, October 14, 2006

Singaporean r so F* up!!!

Friday, October 06, 2006

Today... my 2 stupid phone went low batt! tmd!

I have tuition... and i had HRM meeting.. it took so long.. got a little fiery... and in the end.. i'm late for my tuition...

Anyway... i was in the MRT taking the NEL home... and wtf.. i'm in the train itself.. and i asked an uncle to lend me the handphone...

Well, i mean. it was a little too much that i asked to change the sim card from my handphone into his phone so that i can retrieve a number... but he said that in a ridiculous chinese tone:" huh? how can u not remember the number?"

I was like " but it's not my number!"

He was like " Ridiculous.. it's your number and yet you can't remember the number?!"

I was like... " why would i remember the number?!"

In me... i was thinking.. what the hell would i remmebr the number.. i just wanted to call my student's mum to tell her that i'll be late home.. so don't come over so quickly... and... then... dont' wanna lend me phone.. then suah la.. tell me that i'm being stupid to not remmeber the number that i wanna call.. if i can remember... i save the number in my phonebook for what? the fuck? right??!!!!!!

Stupid uncle..

Next came a stupid later.. i dont' know if she's a fillipino maid.. or a mix blood or what ever F*!

And as u know.. my phone low batt.. so i don't hae the humbers to call.. so.. i took out my laptop.. switched it on.. and started looking for the contact list in my laptop... which somehow.. ultimately.. i found it.. so...

i decided to ask the lady sitting beside me *the previous uncle got downa t doby gauht* to ask her if she can lend me the handphone... and she said :" who are u wanting to call?"

I was like.. am i suppose to explain the situation to u?!

so i said:" i am late for something.. so i need to call to inform!"

she said that in a very politically right way " sorry i can't help!"

can't help then can't help la... she still have to add..

" If you want i can give u some money to make the phone call at the public phone..."

WTF! dont' lend.. then don't lend la.. no need to lend me money to make phone call la... i that poor meh?! i can even afford to buy a new handphone! but my goodness that was an MRT train!! FUCK! FUCK! FUCK!!

Singaporeans are so fucking skeptical... not that i mind that fact and not that i think that it's ridiculous.. but situation is that we are in a train.. we are in a cabin.. where can i run to?!

FUCK!

~AuRo`Na~
Friday, October 06, 2006