Wednesday, April 05, 2006
i'm starting to see light...
in my life... in the relationship i'm having with ken...
Ken constantly asked if i want to be his girlfriend...
And i constantly refuse to give an answer...
I've been treating him well enough and much better than treating anyone.. for sure.. good enough treatment for a boyfriend... but i feel so hard to start giving in that much again...
It seems like it's so tough to say yes.. and be ready to commint...
Ken is a possessive man and he is very protective... His possesiveness.. i sorta got a taste for it... and it's quite hard for me to digest...
The only reason i'll agree to be his girlfriend will be because i like him enough...
But then again, i'm afriad of those burden that comes with the relationship...
Well, don't u think that with each relationship comes a different set of burden...
I must learn to not love him too much.. not be part of him too much and i should wait for a little longe.r. for he's starting to work soon.. things will change.. and i'm afraid of changes! hm... anyway... When he works, things will change la.. and who knows he can go look for someone else he likes?! i think that's only fair.. i mean.. that's the time when u step out and meet people.. beautiful people... smart and capable people...
I think i'll still wait... i should.. not agree...
~AuRo`Na~
Wednesday, April 05, 2006