here i am.. in the very moodless kinda pattern.. i'm staring at my notes and stupid bowl of cereal...
Terrible.. terrbile shit.. i was piaing for my bio paper and maths paper the other day.. and it sorta drained me of my energy...
Yesterday i have absolutely no mood to mug for my today's biology paper.. ended up surfing the web... chit chat and stuffs... not studying.. till 11pm.. when Da chang Jin ended.. WTF?!
Then still not really studying.. but talking to ken.. till this morning.. 5.30am...
Went to sleep.. and now i regretted not looking at the notes earlier... comparatively... this is an easier paper than tuesday's biology paper.. terrible me!! and now.. i have only time to study the tutorials!!
And why HL milk sux! cos it's taste sucky.. looks sucky!! looks more like semens than milk.. i bet semen taste better than that.. when can i find such a kinda milk which have no texture and not appetising.. i tell u.. my whole day is so ruined by it..
So have the urge to just dump it away.. but.. expensive kinda beverage... at least 20 times more than the same amount of water... so... keep! Ken will drink.. haha.. i know... he always does.... muahahaha....
~AuRo`Na~
Friday, April 21, 2006
I haven't been really studying hard this sem... needless to say why i'm feeling so stressed up now...
This semester begin with a lot of crap.. from Ken.. and CK.. and most importantly.. myself... terrible terrible terrible!!!
I got into the mood of knowing that i'm bettter of.. perhaps.. as a law student.. and better still a mass communication student... after telling ken that.. i think i should do a biological drama for my FYP-final year project!
Then from that day onwards, i feel that i'm wasting my time here in NTU doing bioengineering!! terrible shit me!
Yesterday started off fine with studying at about 11+... Studying for today's exams, or so i thought... only at 4 + that i realise that i've been studying for friday's module... alamak!
Then i went hysterical for a while.. and got fine, after realising that it's better that i have little time left to study for molecular biology than to have that amount of time for Intro to cell... anyway.. it doesn't make too much difference.. since both are as difficult... And i'm doom!
By evening, i bought a packet of nescafe 2-in-1 coffee mix and decided to make coffee... And i did.. and i did a lot.. i used up like 20 packets of coffee and end up with a filled 1.5l bottle... And 3 bottles of the mineral water...
Then i read and study... Till 4 am... with some jokes in between... and at the end... i read through the past year paper!!! and then... I REALISE THAT I STILL DON"T KNOW ANYTHING!! how?!
-just thought that this will be a good time to complain... and vent out.. and must destress a bit.. well.. a lot... i'll be heading for the war in 1.30pm!
~AuRo`Na~
Tuesday, April 18, 2006
I'll try to study.. and i'll try my best! but i NEEd luck! people.. please pray for me!! thanks.... *smuacks!!!*
~AuRo`Na~
Monday, April 10, 2006
i'm feeling love... haha..
just come to realise that i didn't like ken from the start... but i grow to like him... heh
~AuRo`Na~
Friday, April 07, 2006
Wednesday, April 05, 2006
i'm starting to see light...
in my life... in the relationship i'm having with ken...
Ken constantly asked if i want to be his girlfriend...
And i constantly refuse to give an answer...
I've been treating him well enough and much better than treating anyone.. for sure.. good enough treatment for a boyfriend... but i feel so hard to start giving in that much again...
It seems like it's so tough to say yes.. and be ready to commint...
Ken is a possessive man and he is very protective... His possesiveness.. i sorta got a taste for it... and it's quite hard for me to digest...
The only reason i'll agree to be his girlfriend will be because i like him enough...
But then again, i'm afriad of those burden that comes with the relationship...
Well, don't u think that with each relationship comes a different set of burden...
I must learn to not love him too much.. not be part of him too much and i should wait for a little longe.r. for he's starting to work soon.. things will change.. and i'm afraid of changes! hm... anyway... When he works, things will change la.. and who knows he can go look for someone else he likes?! i think that's only fair.. i mean.. that's the time when u step out and meet people.. beautiful people... smart and capable people...
I think i'll still wait... i should.. not agree...
~AuRo`Na~
Wednesday, April 05, 2006