Tuesday, February 21, 2006
a simple word... a simple meaning create happiness and sadness in people's live...
Firstly.. wanna congrats Wendy jie jie for getting married on 28th this month... Not easy for people to come by together... not easy for people to even go on dates.. what more say... for two to get married... and stay bonded as one...
Marriage--- when 2 become 1...
I myself have been entangled in love... since i was born...
Good and bad...
I should say i'm very fortunate to be always in the embrace of love from people around me...
Parental love came since i was born... Then sibling love.. from my brother... and then came more distant kinda love from friends... People who cry with you... laugh with you... Finally the more complicated kinda love of all... from your Lover...
In this kinda love... we experience all kinds of emotions and trauma...
There are jealousy... expectations... patience... tolerence... sadness... happiness...
Times when because of love... you have no appitite...
Times when because of love... you can't sleep...
Times when because of love... you just fall sick...
I'm indeed blessed that i have wonderful boyfriends who love me and cared for me... up till now.. i'm feel blessed that people around me loves and care for me...
I'm pampered... and i'm doted on... because sometimes... i'm worthy... i do things for the people i love to great extent...
Think of the times when i took care of JJ's family...
The times when i cried for Jenson's family...
The times when i do everything for CK.. and that i am just a small little woman.. whom i may not be... And how i plan for ken's birthday... and spent 2 weeks of sleepless nights just to get things done for him...
Of course there are times when i dont' feel good too...
The times when i'm too demanding to JJ... The times when i want to possess CK... and the times when i slim down >6kg.. just cos.. i'm sensitive and i think too much...
To be love is good... but what will you do when someone loves u.. yet you can't reciprocate...
Don't you feel guilty?!
That's what i'm feeling now...
I'm stuck in 2 relationships which i think will head no where...
People tell me to follow my heart... Some tell me to be happy and not turn back...
Who should i listen to?! which side of myself should i listen to?!
People claim that they get disappointed if i were to turn back... And i'm blamed for following my emotions... Y?
I don't want to hurt anyone either... and that's why i think sometimes i hurt myself...
Where should i head to... which direction should i go.. so that i'll never regret...
~AuRo`Na~
Tuesday, February 21, 2006