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my Retro 21st!!

Sunday, February 26, 2006

I'm turning 21 this coming friday!!
well.. what's so excited about that right?!

Just another birthday ma..
But this is the first time i'm having a birthday with a theme!!

It's retro!!!!

So.. for those who still don't know.. my party is on 3rd March 2006
At aloha Changi Chalet D!!
And dress as retro as possible!!

This is the link to my birthday invitation!! http://www.geocities.com/imelena/

so... hm.. people want wish list...
but i'm gald enough to have u all be there! make the party a success by dressing as Retro as possible yeah!!!

Come on down and enjoy the night.. rock all night ba!!!

~AuRo`Na~
Sunday, February 26, 2006

it's not easy.. to be... me...

Thursday, February 23, 2006

life hasn't been easy.. and i'll tell u people why soon.. thanks to all those who helped me through all these while... special thanks to Solomon.. Jie yang... Huifei jie jie... Jeremy...

And lastly.. Ken.. my greatest help of all time.. he stood by me.. through the good and bad... he endured all those times when i cried.. and sollow... he make me happy with surprises that i i expected and i didn't... He made me happy by telling me how pretty i look and how cute and petite i am in his eyes(cos he's a giant)... I can never forget how he vandalise Sentosa for me.. though it at first stressed me out... The effort that he made to make me laugh.. make me happy and make me pissed off sometimes..*haha*... i simply don't know how to express my gratitude in words to him... Thanks Ken...

Thanks to everyone who's been around for me... to make me happy... Thank u...

~AuRo`Na~
Thursday, February 23, 2006

爱

Tuesday, February 21, 2006

a simple word... a simple meaning create happiness and sadness in people's live...

Firstly.. wanna congrats Wendy jie jie for getting married on 28th this month... Not easy for people to come by together... not easy for people to even go on dates.. what more say... for two to get married... and stay bonded as one...

Marriage--- when 2 become 1...

I myself have been entangled in love... since i was born...
Good and bad...

I should say i'm very fortunate to be always in the embrace of love from people around me...
Parental love came since i was born... Then sibling love.. from my brother... and then came more distant kinda love from friends... People who cry with you... laugh with you... Finally the more complicated kinda love of all... from your Lover...

In this kinda love... we experience all kinds of emotions and trauma...
There are jealousy... expectations... patience... tolerence... sadness... happiness...
Times when because of love... you have no appitite...
Times when because of love... you can't sleep...
Times when because of love... you just fall sick...

I'm indeed blessed that i have wonderful boyfriends who love me and cared for me... up till now.. i'm feel blessed that people around me loves and care for me...

I'm pampered... and i'm doted on... because sometimes... i'm worthy... i do things for the people i love to great extent...
Think of the times when i took care of JJ's family...
The times when i cried for Jenson's family...
The times when i do everything for CK.. and that i am just a small little woman.. whom i may not be... And how i plan for ken's birthday... and spent 2 weeks of sleepless nights just to get things done for him...

Of course there are times when i dont' feel good too...
The times when i'm too demanding to JJ... The times when i want to possess CK... and the times when i slim down >6kg.. just cos.. i'm sensitive and i think too much...

To be love is good... but what will you do when someone loves u.. yet you can't reciprocate...
Don't you feel guilty?!
That's what i'm feeling now...

I'm stuck in 2 relationships which i think will head no where...

People tell me to follow my heart... Some tell me to be happy and not turn back...
Who should i listen to?! which side of myself should i listen to?!
People claim that they get disappointed if i were to turn back... And i'm blamed for following my emotions... Y?

I don't want to hurt anyone either... and that's why i think sometimes i hurt myself...
Where should i head to... which direction should i go.. so that i'll never regret...

~AuRo`Na~
Tuesday, February 21, 2006

Taoism

Friday, February 17, 2006

You fit in with:
Taoism

Your ideals mostly resemble those of the Taoist faith. Spirituality is the most important thing in your life. You strive to live by all of your ideals, and live a very intellectually focused life.

60% spiritual.
20% reason-oriented.

Take this quiz at QuizGalaxy.com

~AuRo`Na~
Friday, February 17, 2006

after i die?!

life hasn't been too good for me.. and i haven't been njoyingmyself.. so.. it's time for me.. and u readers.. to get a more relaxing time...

After you die...
Heaven

After death, you will exist in heaven. Everything and everyone you love will constantly surround you for all of eternity. You lucky scoundrel.

Take this quiz at QuizGalaxy.com

~AuRo`Na~
Friday, February 17, 2006

only wen u have lost...

Tuesday, February 07, 2006

I know where my heart lies...

i try to get it back to where it lies...

Only to know that perhaps.. i ruin it on my own...

Perhaps i shouldn't question too much and just move on... carry on...

let it be... where by we'll all be someone with someone new...

And when we should all be happy... Will you be happy knowing that there's this someone you love out in the world.. yet you can't be with him/her?!

I slept crying and i woke up too often only to realise that i care so much... like in the past...

Then i thought too...

Even if we got back together.. will things be the same and be sweet like in the past?!

afterall... i'm the one who got close to other people...

"Karma" is the thing he kept emphasizing yesterday night...

From yesterday... i realise that... yes... i'm loved... but in different ways... i don't know what ways.. but... i was told i'll be loved...

He said that i didn't think about him when i went out all the time till late night...

He said that i didn't think about him when i'm out with other people...

He said that i didn't care...

He said that i said i've moved on...

Have i?!

All along i was wondering if this is another phase that i'll go through in my relationship with him... That this is just a passing phase... That after this... i'll be his angel again...

These few days... i realise that.. yeap... it is indeed the passing phase...

But now... i suppose this passing will give the whole thing a pass...

I asked... " am i the only one who thinks of getting back now?!"

And the reply was positive... Indeed i might create a lot of commotion and talking behind his, our back if we really get back...

I think perhaps... i took too long to think of being back together with him... And now... i miss the chance...

I'm feeling lost... upset and i can't smile... to know that he'll be going out with girls soon...

Is this a typical case whereby i've lost... then i know how to cherish?!

Will i be happier?! with him?! without him?!

Do you think we'll just be friends?! or rather... do u think we should just be friends?!

afterall he has changed... he'll never be the same person i've been with...

Why people always like to say things that they don't mean it?!

Why so people have to love and lost.. then they'll cherish?!

Why people must sometime learn through the hard way..

I feel tired... after yesterday...

Why is it that people love to gossip so much that it makes things so difficult now?!

Why is it that i do things without thinking of the consequences... why?! why ?! why?!

I love him... and i'm feeling terrible...

I hope if he doesn't want to get back with me.. he'll tell me soon... so that i can let go better... and live on... carry on... start to love those who deserve to be loved...

~AuRo`Na~
Tuesday, February 07, 2006