My body is aching after the whole of the NTU Karate Club camp at MOE dairy Farm Road and in NTU itself...
I enjoyed myself very much with the people around.. i think i still love martial arts a lot.. though not this genre of Karate...
Was doing a lot of stunts and fighting with Ck using the Muay Thai And Kyokushin Karate style...
No regrets in spending time there... the people are great...
First time i see foreigner working so hard and so much to make the camp a better place..
They are people with no complains and attitude... They work willingly for the main committee and listen to everyone in the main committee irregardless of which post you hold or if they are in your committee or not...
The NUS people were a little stuck up though... and i met Hendra, a friend from secondary school tuition class at Mrs Cheng's...
In the camp, i see that Ck was still worried, anxious about me.. plus he loved me...
He looked at me with the caring eyes tat i used to loved being looked at...
From the looks i know he loves me deeply... very much...
On the first night.. it's CK's birthday... i had a surprise prepared for him..
I got James to come with a cake...
Made him think that i want to spar with him.. then i just went away.. without him knowing..
And then reappear with James, gf n the strudels as the cake...
HE was really astonished...
I've succeeded in surprising him again!! yeah!! success!!
After the celebrating, he sent them out.. and i followed shortly after that... knowing that i should wish him a HAPPY BIRTHDAY... he was touched and gave me a hug... it felt just so comfortable... and so familiar.. i wish i can be in that embrace forever...
I felt like he still wants to get back with me... (i think i want it too...)
On the 2nd day of the camp.. he still showered attention and love on me... even during the BBQ... he was concern that i had not enough food to eat.. and he was also concern that i was wearing lenses and should not be standing so close to the fire.. since like it seems that the foreigners do not have any F***ing idea how to get the fire started?!!! terrible.. for once i feel so much smarter than the scholars!! yeah!!!
Then it came the time when we were suppose to go hm...
at that time... CK left... he left early... i don't know why... but i just cried...
Why is it that he just won't stay to talk to me... why is it that he just won't do anything...
then i realise that.. for the effort that he has put in these few days.. i just don't deserve it...
I feel really very sad...
~AuRo`Na~
Monday, January 23, 2006