Sunday, November 13, 2005
yesterday had a talk with him...
Had been unhappy for a long time...
I spilled out al the bad things, inconsiderate things... that he had done for the past very long time. He comment that i didn't wanna say things out when they happened... I refuted with :" How to say? When everytime i say something... i get an "chou lian".. How to say when it always ended up you being unhappy... then again... if i always have to say... When will he ever learn?
The reason for me not saying anything is because.. i needed him to learn on his own... Because i believe that unless he learn or someone learn on his own... He has never understand... am i right?
I had been very angry with myself.. cos i dont' love myself enough...
Gave him all that i have.. yet i'm taken for granted...
I ended of the talk thing with hug.. of course.. but with 3 important question...
1.) Think back on all the things that you have done... Have you been taking me for granted?
2.) Will you appreciate me more?
3.) Do u still love me?
He ended... well, with much pestering of what is on his mind... he said..." I don't wanna lose you..."
Everyone has their patience and limit... And i said something which mean to be something to be said and not threatening...
"If you don't wanna lose me... then be nice to me... Because if one day... i can't take it anymore... I'll just leave..."
It's not a threath.. but fact...
Too bad... my patience is so damn good... that's why after so long.. i'm still with him...
~AuRo`Na~
Sunday, November 13, 2005