Tuesday, October 04, 2005
Life sux when u can trust...
I feel that the trust is losing... well.. as i've said earlier... feeling is such am important animal instinct.. and that it's such a powerful thing.. i control all that you do.. and all that u subsequently feel...
Just called him.. and he didn't picked up.. haiz.. then start to think that he's doing something behind my back.. shitty. right.. to have this kinda gf... or is it his fault that he can't make me feel secure enough.. and trusting enough? i wonder....
TRUST.. i used to be about to trust Jen... but nowadays.. i can't seem to trust anyone... nobody... sometimes. i can't even trust my own feeling... don't you think it's so terrible!
Because he doesnt' normally send me back to my room... now that he sent me back so early.. and that he didnt' pick up my phone call.. i get suspiciou... argh~~~ i'm crazy... why can't i just let loose.. and trust!! F***!
~AuRo`Na~
Tuesday, October 04, 2005