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Tuesday, October 04, 2005

Everyone always feel... feel.. feel..
When we're at home... we FEEL at hm...
When we're in school... we FEEL stressed...
When you pat your doggy, it FEEL loved...
When you are attached to somebody, you FEEL in love...
When a husband is having an affair... the wife FEELS it..
When you are all alone in a room... when your family are away... when there are no friends around you... we all FEEL lonely... sad... afraid... upset...

When we feel something... we often see things in different light..
When we feel upset... you do things in the very down way... talk in the down tone...
Even your sleep can be affected.. you can't sleep well...
For some people... it'll make you appitite lousy... it'll make you slim down...
For others... you gorge you food away.. telling youself that you'll feel fine as long as you eat them away...

For me... i feel... i feel... i FFEL that my bf no longer loves me the way he does.. i FEEL that he's getting sick of me...

I went to his room just now cos he said he had a headache... when he woke up, he gave me a kiss on the forehead...
When we were walking to the car... he hugged me.. and teased...
When we were having dinner... he held my hand and gave me 3 nudge to us.. it's a sign of 'I love You'... cos. there's 3 words in i love u...

This morning.. i FEEL... that he doesn't love me that much anymore...

Perhaps what solomon said about relationship is true... after years have pass by.. it'll be 25% love and the rest will be commitment... hm...

I do feel that he's sometimes doing things just cos he feel commited... that's all...

He has this on his msn nick " Sometimes, what you see and what you feel contradicts"
Everything when he feels about something... i'll always tend to direct the emotions back to myself.... Nevertheless.. this time also lor... I feel that it's something to do with me...

But can't figure out what.. cos it was so nice just now... even when we were walking down the stairs after the part time lecture... he was still looking at me and smile... he even joked with me in the lecture...

What's wrong?

I think i've already done more than enough.. good enough... for him.. as a gf... and many even say i'm more than a girlfriend.. more like a wife to him...

Shun says: C*** B** la.. u B**** B***** spoilt Shee Kay... so badly.. se thte standard for gf so high... wah lao... and B**** H*** Shee Kay set the stupid standard so low.. now.. everything also can liao la... i think i can even make it...

Hm... shucky... urgh.. can somebody tell me if i'm right? i'm wrong? is there anything wrong with me? is what he talking about the feel and see thing about the CAR? or some bloody bitch after her again...

U all want me to ask him? cannot... he told me not to compare me n him together.. so i shan't ask.. cos in his world.. only he can ask.. i can't... so damn bloody F*** up! i hate myself. i hate everyone! i hate this world.. COS THE WORLD IS SO UNFAIR!! IF IT's fair then i'll get all that i want! just like those people who knows what they want.. and do what they wanT!!!!!!

~AuRo`Na~
Tuesday, October 04, 2005