Sometimes i think too much... but i doubt i do take people for granted...
I'm grateful to people who once stepped into my life and had made it a better life...
I'm thankful for the time that people has given to me when i was in bad mood and stuffs like that...
I'm more than glad to say that despite not being on perfect terms with some people.. they still do help me in every single way that i needed help in...
Indeed it may be true that we encounter ups and down in our everyday life... And it is also too true that there are happiness... sadness and too much of other emotions...
I'm a pessemistic person who always tend to think of things in the bad light... and i can't deny that i always end up being upset for nothing...
When in learning.. i care more about the way i learn it.. the process of learning... if i have a thorough learning journey...
But when it comes to life... i'll always be glad that the end results is good... and i'll be more happy than ever....
Ever since primary school... i will always be very afraid before exam as to unsure of what questions will come one.. and be afraid that the questions asked will be too difficult to answer...
Then after exams, i'm often too worried that i won't get the good results.. even though i know it will not be that bad afterall and that i will definitely not fail...
Nowadays in life... whenever bad things crop up i will always think of the bad things first.. so that i can be prepared if anything will to happen....
I'm not afraid of dying... people sees dying as something very scary and something to be prevented... but... i don't think so.... though it's untold off... i do believe that dying is to set myself free of all the misery and troubles...
And it's only when you die that u can see or at least in your deathbed, in t he untold of times that u can realise how many people mourn for u.. how many people grief for your loss and how many people care for u... and are upset over your death...
~AuRo`Na~
Sunday, October 23, 2005