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i'm so dissappointed!!

Wednesday, September 28, 2005

I'm so disappointed by my bf... he's taking the car matter too well.. he's accepting the ar as it is.. no question asked! WHAT!? is that a way to show me that he trust me? or is that a way to show me how much he loves the car? exuse me?! argh~~~!!! ok.. before u even think of an answer for the questions i posed.. please listen to this...

The Integra has all the functions that he wants in a car.. and is given to me from Cav.. ok...
Then, i told him that i'm trying to push for having the car 3 years later in my own name and i'll pay the instalment... But he... WANTS IT TO HIS NAME.. claiming that he feels uncomfortable to have cars that belongs to us.. when it's not under his name.. cos he's brought up that way by his parents... and that his mum even brought club membership to his dad's name...

One thing i can't understand:
Why will a man wants to have a car which is not given to him initially...
Why will a man wants to have something... which is not owned by him...

He says he felt upset by me... because when he has got his car, and that he went to duplicat a key for me... And that when i will be havin a car.. i don't get this done... And he feels that he dotes on me... more than i dote on him...

MY reason:
It's my car... and yes.. u let me drive your car though in fear that our dad may see me in it.. But then.. i have no CAR!! And secondly.. i NEVER KNOW THAT we can ANYHOW duplicate a car's key...
Thirdly, there are times when i can understand how much you dote on the car and i let u do whatever you want to the car.... And thoughg you mentiont that u like integra but your preference always changes.. and now.. your preference is a EVO 9... so now that i have an Integra.. which has always been my choice of cars.. over any other cars... u want MY CAR! which doesn't even belong to me! belong to someone else!

HE wants to take over the car payment 2 years from now.. when HE graduates! But the deal i have with Cav is that i take over the car when I graduate! My bf says that will help me feel less indebt to Cav, well yes indeed it will... but you are making me lose something that i owned all these few years.... And the fact that u want to pay for the car means it'll be yours.. and then... it's not mine anymore...

Back to the 1st ever reason mention in this blog...
WHy on earth are you so proud and so determined to get the Integra when it's initally not even yours....

F*** up isn't it?

ok... now... He is going out on a birthday celebration with his brother, james, and da-ie, xiao mei... n he WANTS TO USE MY INTEGRA!
Don't you think it's over board.. that i cannot even be there... and yet.. he wants to take MY CAR OUT! to flaunt in a place.. where my presence cannot even be felt?! Excuse me!

This car will be ur-my bf, if it's mine... for now.. it's mine.. only because of cavin.. and being mine now.. doesnt' mean that it belongs to him! What right does he has that he demand to much..

And to add on.. why is it that i don't make a key for him is because... The remote control to it.. is one with the ignition button.. the car STARTS before i reach it!

MY integra has a DVD player.. and superior hi-fi system! Why does he want to flaunt something that isn't even his... Or is it because it's mine... Fern... please advice me! please!!!!!

~AuRo`Na~
Wednesday, September 28, 2005