AsPire To InSpiRe... BefoRe U eXpire...

~Quotes~

A Blithe Heart Makes A Blooming Visage...
We give up leisure in order that wemay have leisure...
If you're great at something, tell everyone. If you're GREAT at something, they'll tell u...
L.U.C.K~ Laboring Under Correct Knowledge
There is no intrinsic truth hidden in the experiences and encounters of life...

~May our wishes come true~

there's already happiness at hm...

Tuesday, May 24, 2005

Everytime when he concentrates in being with his family.. puts all his effort into being with them and enjoy quality time with them... I believe he's truly happy.... I believe he has happiness... at hm...

I feel like i'm a hindrance to him... in his life...
I feel like giving up... let go of everything...
I'm tired of waiting for phone calls...
i'm tired of hanging out.. in discreet...
I'm tired of covering up.. in front of my parents...

I feel that he already has all that he needs at hm... He doesn't need me...
When he's out with his friends... i feel that he's happy...
When he's out with his family... i feel that he's happy...
When he's leading a life of freedom.. and has no worries about me being happy or unhappy...
i feel he's happy...

I believe he can be much happier than he is now...
I love him.. but i can't let him go...
I hate him as much... but... i don't want to live without him...

I think it's selfish for me to let go.. if without asking him for his opinion...

I was thinking.. if this relationship were to be kept secret for a long time... what if we were to get married!? Should his parents not know yet by then?!

The how?! he'll live a life of two identity!? one married when he's with me... then a life.. that's not married... and continue to stay with his parents?! shucks! what the hell... i hate this...

~AuRo`Na~
Tuesday, May 24, 2005