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26th April...

Wednesday, April 27, 2005

i just finished my paper this afternoon at 2.48pm?! The paper's suppose to end at 3.30... But there's too many things that i don't know how to do... and it pisses me off sitting down there to wait for things to happen... so i decided to go.. Well, it's not like if i sit there for one or two hours more.. i'll then know the answers... NO!!! not like that..

Most screwed up thing is that i have paper yesterday.. Physics paper yesterday.. and it's a hard core thing... 4AUs... the most important module that i have to take this semester.. and one that i cannot afford to tapao... Taking into consideration that i was once offered Physics S paper.. it's bad enough that i didn't get A for physics in 'A' Level, no A in last semester... and this time.. physics again?! i hope can at least do well... Felt confident on sunday afternoon.. the day before the paper.. but after that.. i was like.. totally shattered?! *ping piang!!*

HAiz... let me recall what happened in the past few weeks when i did not blog!!!

Let's see... from the 13th April... i've been study for exams... hanging out with my bf, Alecia, her bf, pat, des, shunz.. ah.. just any one got to do with cirriculum... life has been rather monotonous... yeap....

Now... what have i done... study.... EAt... sleep... study... slack... relax... watch tv... eat.. sleep... study.. haha. such a colourful life i lead!!!!

How wonderful.. how amazing!!!

I'm with my bf almost 24/7... Been with him.. quarrels and all are definitely unevitable.. but i sense the losing of my patience.... and 细心。。。no more!!
can't be so... not as much as in the past... Life sux!! hai.. should i say that he's a poor thing... for being with such an idiotic me... or should i say.. he deserves it?!

He's now sleeping beside me... haiz.. poor fellow... can't really control my temper nowadays... shit... is it me?

MY first paper was Marketing... I studied hard for htat paper... and practically read through the whole text book.. For my projec part of the course.. thich consist of almost... 40% of the whole grade.. i've already gotten an A.. all thanks to my groupmates.. who are all so smart.. witty and whatever.. haha..

2nd paper...
MAthematic... i'm hoping for an A!!!!! really i need an A!!! this is one of the last few modules and last semester that i can be a relac jack and still get A... if this semester. i don't get As.. i don't know when else can i get A!!!! ARH!!!!!!

3rd paper....
Computing...
This is a screwed up paper.... i practicalle wrote out each and every single programme.. though.. i was only asked to write out the function header and stuffs.. althought i don't know hwat a function header.. so perhaps.. it's so much safer to write everything out...

4th Paper..
Chemistry...
i'll be going back to SRJC to teach chemistry in a week's time.. and i'm still bloody hell weak at my Chemistry.. lucky... those thigs that i'll be teaching are so damn simple things... Plus all answers to what i teach are given...

5th paper....
Physics..
I've told u somthings about physics.. so shouldn't say too much...

6th paper..
Comparative society... canot do a 20 marks question.. ar!!
forget it.. i think i'm gonna flunck this paper!!!

Last paper.. is on next tuesday.. in the afternoon..
effective ocmmunication.. ah.. what shit.. theory and principles about communication.. ah.. suz!!!

anyway... my room today is so damn bloody hot..

Let's see... thought this period is a fufilling period.. where i learn a lot.. so much more that what i've learnt this whole semester.. cos.. i normally don't listen during lecture... but i miss out a lot of fun.. firstly.. my GPC member.. went to HONGKONG without me.... then they form a G-CUBE grp... so damn sad lor.. and i haven't been having fun...

Alecia has got a bf now.. happy for her.. she always look so happy.. but i like lose a friend like htat le....

What else.. i don't know.. i feel that time is passing by so slowing.. felt that i haven been study and studying.. but i seem to be stucked at 1st year engineering.. i just hope i pass everything!!!
Perhaps. it's cos i eat here.. slp here.. study here.. and stay here.. i even have date with my bf here.. ah!!!! life's so torturing here!!!!! sucks!! July is coming.. UOC is coming... hall camp is coming.. i'm scared.. that history willl repeat itself.. i'm so scared!!!! ah... help!!!!! i don't wanna feel unloved again.. i don't wanna feel sad again!!!! please!!!! please!!!! people please help me.. help keep me occupied!!!! i wanna a gd life....

I just want to be happy....

~AuRo`Na~
Wednesday, April 27, 2005