AsPire To InSpiRe... BefoRe U eXpire...

~Quotes~

A Blithe Heart Makes A Blooming Visage...
We give up leisure in order that wemay have leisure...
If you're great at something, tell everyone. If you're GREAT at something, they'll tell u...
L.U.C.K~ Laboring Under Correct Knowledge
There is no intrinsic truth hidden in the experiences and encounters of life...

~May our wishes come true~

I'm not as...

Wednesday, February 23, 2005

I'm not as strong...
I'm not as capable...
I'm not as independent...
I'm not as smart...

As u think i am...

I look happy, but i'm weary...
I look non chalant, but in fact, i care...
I look confident, but i live in fear of losing...
I look busy, i'm just too preoccupied in my own thoughts...

I'm stressed out by my thoughts... by the things that are happening around me.. but the matters that i'm unable to fufil...
I'm afraid... of things that may or may not happen...
I'm alone... i trust him no more... Once put all my faith in him and trust that he'll bring me the greatest joy... but NO...

I can't help myself from not doing things i need to do... like studying... cos... i'm too preoccupied...
I'm no longer the once independent young lady i once was... i'm no longer the confident young lady i once were... I disappoint many... i instil a false hope in many...
I disappoint my dad... mum... family... friends... my dearest girlfriends... and most importantly... MYSELF...

I'm afraid for the past 8/9 months of my life... never been so useless... so dependent in my life before...

Why can't i take things as they are?! Why can't i take things easy?! Why can't i let go of my past?! Why can't i let go of unhappy memories?! Why am i not myself?! Why am i not the women i want myself to be?!

~AuRo`Na~
Wednesday, February 23, 2005