~A Shiny Star~
Name : Elena Lim
Nick: Moo, AuRo'Na
Adores:
Beautiful scenery
~Quotes~
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A Blithe Heart Makes A Blooming Visage...
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We give up leisure in order that wemay have leisure...
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If you're great at something, tell everyone. If you're GREAT at something, they'll tell u...
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L.U.C.K~ Laboring Under Correct Knowledge
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There is no intrinsic truth hidden in the experiences and encounters of life...
~May our wishes come true~
GPC outing-
Monday, February 28, 2005
Introducing from left... Mira... Samantha... me... n carrie...
We are the girls.. from GPC...
Look at us.. so carefree!!
"BIG HEAD" shoot!! haha...
i like this photo... yeah.. Actually i like every photos... they all have such great blending of sun... sea.. n the sky.. the colours in all the photos are WONDERFUL!!!!!
~AuRo`Na~
Monday, February 28, 2005
I'm not as...
Wednesday, February 23, 2005
I'm not as strong...
I'm not as capable...
I'm not as independent...
I'm not as smart...
As u think i am...
I look happy, but i'm weary...
I look non chalant, but in fact, i care...
I look confident, but i live in fear of losing...
I look busy, i'm just too preoccupied in my own thoughts...
I'm stressed out by my thoughts... by the things that are happening around me.. but the matters that i'm unable to fufil...
I'm afraid... of things that may or may not happen...
I'm alone... i trust him no more... Once put all my faith in him and trust that he'll bring me the greatest joy... but NO...
I can't help myself from not doing things i need to do... like studying... cos... i'm too preoccupied...
I'm no longer the once independent young lady i once was... i'm no longer the confident young lady i once were... I disappoint many... i instil a false hope in many...
I disappoint my dad... mum... family... friends... my dearest girlfriends... and most importantly... MYSELF...
I'm afraid for the past 8/9 months of my life... never been so useless... so dependent in my life before...
Why can't i take things as they are?! Why can't i take things easy?! Why can't i let go of my past?! Why can't i let go of unhappy memories?! Why am i not myself?! Why am i not the women i want myself to be?!
~AuRo`Na~
Wednesday, February 23, 2005
$216
Tuesday, February 22, 2005
I had my hair coloured and cut today... first time ever in my life i coloured my hair... plus treatment.. this is the amount it cost... hm.. my hair.. a little brown.. at closer look, you'll see that there's this reddish part.. which sometimes is hidden... sometimes is not... haah.. it's made to be the kind which goes..."now u see it.. now u don't!" Very much want to capture it down for your view.. but don't ahve a gd enough camera now to take and have it uploaded... hm...
Since friday... i've been waiting.. waiting.. and waiting for his phone call... his presence.. for him to say that he misses me.. wants to see me and stuffs... but that doesn't happen..
This afternoon, he called and said that he wants to come over to look for me.. but it's now... 10+pm, but he isn't here.. no replies from him.. though i've sent like 4/5 messages.... no phone call from him to say that he's coming.. or he's NOT coming....
I hate this kind of waiting... When i need u, u are not around... when i want you.. i can't find you...
When u need me, for perhaps just company sake, i'm always a phone call away... but when i say i miss you... i'm always deemed too childish if i argue or demand for you... i'll be also deemed unreasonable... not understanding... what is this world becoming to?! why is it that for eveyrthing i do, i feel that i'm doing something wrong?!
When am i right.. when i don't reply to your sms, i'm wrong for ignoring you...
When u dont' reply to me... it's always cos u r can't be bothered of too busy otherwise, i'll be deemed as too 'fan'... Ahhhhh... this is crazy...
I'm still waiting...
~AuRo`Na~
Tuesday, February 22, 2005
KLUTZ?
Sunday, February 20, 2005
You are a klutz. You don't have a really good
balance.^_^; You have a really bright attitude
and like to party. You see past the all the
looks on people because since your not perfect
you don't see why you should judge others that
way.
-What's a klutz?!
Who are you inside????? (LOTS OF RESULTS)girls only
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~AuRo`Na~
Sunday, February 20, 2005
lovin u...
~*~*~*~ LOVING~*~*~*~
Your loving nature makes you wonderful to be
around. You are the type of person that accepts
people for who they are and they in return of
your good heartedness, accept you right back.
You are most likely a romantic at heart. With a
sensitive soul and probably a broken heart from
the past, you don't usually trust people. You
have probably been hurt by someone you love or
loved dearly which makes it hard to confide in
others. Easy going and romantic, fun and
lovable, you have a great personality. You are
very well liked in the general world that
you're in.
You're Beautiful...but why? ( PICS)
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~AuRo`Na~
Sunday, February 20, 2005
kissesszz...
You have a dominant kiss- you take charge and make
sure your partner can feel it! Done artfully,
it can be very satisfactory if he/she is into
you playing the dominant role MEORW!
What kind of kiss are you?
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~AuRo`Na~
Sunday, February 20, 2005
roses n lurve..
The Goddess of Roses and Love. You are a hopeless
romantic. Always optimistic and loving, you
have many friends and you are exceptionally
trustworthy. You are a innocent beauty.
--Don't really think this is true... but the rose is really pretty....
Which gorgeous goddess are you? For girls! (breath taking pics!) NEW PICS!
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~AuRo`Na~
Sunday, February 20, 2005
Tomboi
lonliness
You represent... loneliness.
Always alone and always sad about it... unlike
angst, you don't have to look for a reason to
be miserable. You want to be in the company of
people but aren't sure how to act when you're
with them. Sometimes you have to make an
effort. You can't always wait for others to
come to you.
--This is so sad...
What feeling do you represent?
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~AuRo`Na~
Sunday, February 20, 2005
"Shui"
WATER is your chinese symbol!
What Chinese Symbol Are You? -- Updated (7/21/03)
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~AuRo`Na~
Sunday, February 20, 2005
Cautious...
you are...a cautious lover.
What Kind Of Lover Are You?
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~AuRo`Na~
Sunday, February 20, 2005
I want to be who i am!!!
Friday, February 18, 2005
Ever since i'm with this bf of mine... things have been made to seem that nothing is more important than him... IS THIS TRUE?!
This is the senario that occurs to me.. which effect and consequences seems to be haunting me... like some... balck magic spirits and stuffs.... I can't help but to put him in my first priority, forgoing everything that i am suppose to do... Family, friends, studies... everything... and i hate myself for that...
I skipped lessons just to spend time, loitering around him... i do this and do that.. just for him... my actions ahve been constructed in such a way that.. it'll make him happy, satisfy him, for him, be around him and him him him him him!!!! AAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHhhhhhhhhh i hate myself!!!!!!!!
what is wrong with me?! where is that true me?! the me who seems dominating on the outsside and IS dominating on the inside!! Is this fate that i'm meant to tone down cos i'[ve met my opponent!!!!
I know he's taking me for granted and he's to self centered to be with anyone... he cares only about himself.... but why am i still so willing to give... i once told myself that i am willing to give because i love him.. and i'm very willing to do things for him although i may not like too... maybe it's becos i dote on him too much to see him suffers... Why am i doing more than i ahve to.. wash clothes in hall!!! be humble to his words and everything!!??!!? why?! why?! why?!?! AAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHhhhhhhh.... i hate myself...
Is he really that important?! can i call that true love?! or perhaps it's just the need of wanting to be possessed.. and reciprocating it by possessing him... by wanting ho possess him... People sing praises about him.. and i doubt not that he'll be not that a bad family man... *am i thinking too far?!
My dad's going away again.. adn i'm doing my usual round of crying just as i always will do when he fly to China for work again... and he msgd me :"'Take care of yourself, school is not everything. You are! If you learn to rest, then you will not suffer like a workaholic like me!"I understand what he means.. but i know i've not worked hard enough... never....I feel that my life has been ruined just cos i placed too much emotions on this man! Why am i so idiotic!!! such stupid!!!!! The small bottle my dad gave me... i lost it... only in 2 weeks, i lost it... The lost of it... i feel that i've lost "happiness for life" just like that inscribed on the rice embeeded inside.. the cork of the bottle is still with me.. that leaves me feeling even worse... my happiness is spilled all over the place...my father's wish for my happiness is gone... FOREVER...
Grandma is sick... and time's running out for her.. Uncle richard is coming home soon from USA... my dad told me to make it a point to spend some time with him... I want to... but i don't know if i can place my bf apart.. away... and spend with at home.. with my family...
Why do i stuck to a guy who like to make fun of me... and disturbs me, make me feel unhappy, unease.. insecure and unappreciate... Thought i know he loves me... Ah......... I want to be with him... and i don't mind doing things for him.. but i don't feel appreciated... cos i'm scolded at all the time....
Somebody pleassse help me!! i WANT MY OWN LIFE.... BUT I"M VERY VERY LOST.....
~AuRo`Na~
Friday, February 18, 2005
A day after Valentine's day...
Wednesday, February 16, 2005
Actually don't know why i name this blog 'A day after Valentine's day', cos there's nothing really special about today... So as in yesterday... I've stopped blogging since 8th Feb.. cos 9th feb is new year.. then following.. i've been at home... or.. rather.. not at home.. but at my grandma's place... and then back in school.. but not in hall... most of the time... no time to blog... WTH...
Anyway.. the past week, without entry, was a rather boring New year.. then again.. i ahve to say i have a great time.. with my friends... Fernie... and Glenn.. yeah!!! I have a great time of our lives.. i hope they have too.. haah.. Glenn.. friend since primary sch.. fern... friend since Sec... well... He's stil the same old him.. no change...
Ok... we went to K!!! n we watched a movie together... SHUTTER!! and what else.. ahd Majhong, Dai di... 21.. Black Jack with my cousins.. they were so much fun.. Supper.. Drinking.. wah... best time.. no homework.. or rather.. not bothered about any homework...
My bf has treated me rather well.. these few days... except for some instances when he's a total idiot.. ahah.. when are men not idiot... i got flowers.. made out of chocolate... Nice of him.. but tell u all.. i very cheapo.. it's like less than 5 hours away from 14th Feb... then i kan cheong.. and i made a SPECIAL card for him.. out of like less than $0.60.. haha.. but i'm creative la... hahaha.... Anyway... hm... i don't know... i think i'm very in love with him.. that the things he did to me.. so idiotic... and so irritating.. but i'm stil longing for him.. WTH right.. LOVE.. ah....
Anyway.... What's Valentine's day...
We should not celebrate today just cos today's the day for love... but becos we're still in love...
i'm saving this quote for my Anniversary.... it's coming.. i hope he doesn't ruin my day!!
~AuRo`Na~
Wednesday, February 16, 2005
i haven't been having any good feelings...
Tuesday, February 08, 2005
For the past few weeks... i have been searching... searching and searching... searching for a reason to carry on... but time has past... emotions have come by... but all i get is negative feelings... negative feelings about him... about things that have been happening... attitude...
Why is life so unfair...
My dad brought me this small bottle.. with sand and a stalk of flower in it... A very typical kind of decorative item that is in fashion 4/5 years ago... But this time.. it's different... He brought it back from China... In it... was this rice which had my name one it... and 4 words... a life of happiness-' kuai le yi sheng'... These few days... i feel very upset about things that are happening... And i will hold on to that small bottle... which is the size of my thumb... In me... i thank him for wishing me a lifetime of happiness... and i do hope to find it as soon as possible... cos i'm simply not very happy... and satisfied with him... with life...
I'm in search... for happiness...
~AuRo`Na~
Tuesday, February 08, 2005
~Blinking Moments~
~Affliation~
Affliations:
Merck Sharp & Dohme
Nanyang Technological University
Institute of PR of Singapore
Serangoon Junior College
Holy Innocent's High School
Holy Innocent's Primary School
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