AsPire To InSpiRe... BefoRe U eXpire...

~Quotes~

A Blithe Heart Makes A Blooming Visage...
We give up leisure in order that wemay have leisure...
If you're great at something, tell everyone. If you're GREAT at something, they'll tell u...
L.U.C.K~ Laboring Under Correct Knowledge
There is no intrinsic truth hidden in the experiences and encounters of life...

~May our wishes come true~

not now...

Thursday, January 27, 2005

I wanna record this entry.. though i don't feel good about that...

He's currently online now... n he didn't even initiate a chat conversation with me... So many people online today... but i don't seem to be talking to anyone at all.. in particular....

These few days i've treated him very badly... or rather.. very coldly... not talking to him in the warm manner i used to... don't smile when i see him...

I feel that i'm very useless in controlling my own emotions... feelings... and thoughts... I know i care a lot about him... but i tell myself that i don't... i know i'll never stop thinking of him... but i tell myself.. and tell people that i don't think of him...

It hurts me so much to see him in his cute sad face say " u don't dote on me anymore..." Today had dinner with him... don't know why we're so comfortable with sitting across the table with WK n Pei in between... When we were studying... we were sitted across the table too... it's normally not the case...

Have been trying to divert my attention to other things in life... music... friends.. work... but i know i'm not happy... maybe i should wait and see.. and try to adapt... Otherwise i'll succumb to him again... i can't do this...

My expectations are too high... and he can't meet my expectations...

I feel so hurt that i'm not 'into' him.... i want to.. but i think he deserve less than that for now... haiz....

~AuRo`Na~
Thursday, January 27, 2005