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Sunday, January 30, 2005

After being away from my bf for a week.... Not say.. Physically... Or whatever...

I found that someone was interested in me last Friday night... And on Sunday went to my GPC member's birthday bash... With a friend of mine...

Me and my GPC members...

And on Monday. I started to treat my bf in a very bo chup manner.... not bothering about what he do... where he goes... and even things around him which i normally do care about.... hm... then on monday.. he said "u don't dote on me anymore"...

On tuesday... i met him only for a while.. and he kept saying "i think u got problem.. No no.. i think we got problem.... We have to talk" which i keep refusing to say anything.. and let things seems as though there's no problem at all...

On Wednesday... i didn't pick up his phone call.. and he got pissed.. i told him.. He shouldn't be pissed and should talk to me nicely...(via SMS) n he said... "i called you and u SMS me!"... 10 minutes later.... After that msg.. i didn't reply... and he msged me again.. "OOOIIIIII!!!!!!".. ahah. i wanted to laugh the minute i see that...

On Thursday... We had a little fight... Cog of some small matters... Anyway.. It's like.. When u don't' feel like caring for that particular person.. Anything that person.. Say or do.. Pisses you off.. A GREAT DEAL... hahah...

On Friday... i went to his lecture hall.. and saw some girl's bag beside.. i know I'm overreacting.. But can't stand the thought.. (if it's that particular one!)... Then i decided not to care.....

I sent him a msg that even:" wee 4's quota of kisses, hugges, sweet talks and smses has not been fufilled... u r reminded to do something about it.. Otherwise.. Unable to grade you for this semester... Do not copy anything from msn or anything not of ur originality.... if not u i'll be dealt with by DM Elena Lim as this is academic cheating-plagiarism...Please redeem yourself... Deadline : 280105 time:2000..."

His reply..." So if i don't do well.. i have to TA pao isit?"

My reply..." if u cheat.. You'll be dealt with... if u don't do well.. u have to TA pao... if u do well.. May consider advancement to higher level"

On the same evening.. At ard 7.15... i msged him again.. "Dear participant of 'love XXX' course... u are reminded that.. u have only 55 minutes to redeem yourself..."

His reply.. " i'm already driving hm... At AMK..."

Hm.. can u imagine how upset i am.. all i wanted was some good sms... and he didn't reply... i noe.. that he must have thought that i wanted him to look for me.. and can't be bothered with my demands... feel so maligned.. i was on my way hm lor.. just trying to create humour....

hai.. call him in the evening.. switched off his phone liao.. So sad..

Saturday... Finally something gd.. he came over to my place.. made him dessert.. today.. we had the longest chat on the phone.. for the whole entire week.. haha.. try.. adding up the whole week's conversation.. not even as much as the 1 hour talk we had in the morning... it has been so long...

Hm.. i think this week will be better...

In fact... why am i so bad to him? cos i feel that.. i'm not that bad afterall.. someone's interested in me.. someone out there wants me... maybe i shouldn't do too much for him... maybe that's the way life should be... i shouldn't bother too much about him...

But... u noe la.. sometimes.. that's not the way.. cos.. it's LURVE.. that really counts lor... hor?!?!
I can tell everyone.. anything.. and everything... but ithink the hardest hurdle to overcome?! ME-I-MYSELF... i bet that applies to everyone.. u out there... and why i'm back.... haha.. I"M BACK AS HIS GOOD GIRL....

Then again.. i stil can't tahan his 'play-ard-o get' attitude... and very 'ti-ki'..
can't stand it.. it's irritating me to the CORE!!!!

~AuRo`Na~
Sunday, January 30, 2005