AsPire To InSpiRe... BefoRe U eXpire...

1st day of school

Wednesday, January 05, 2005

Yesterday was the first day of school....

Let's start from the very late part of yesterday.. met at 11.45 at lounge to celebrate Shirley's birthday... she's a friend from hall.. and was in the same orientation group as me... Apollo...

Before i went out of my room... got news letter publication from my blk rep-Daphne, she also from Apollo... haha... well, inside got my photo... from the Dnd... ah.. nothing much also.. that was just a moment of happiness from that day...

Before that.. i was chatting with my bf on the phone.. i think altogether chatted for almost 2 hours..... what the hell... anyway... was quite happy with the chatting... But sincerely feel something is missing...

In the day i went for my lecture... then lunch with Alecia, Jingshun-forever eating lots of Mac, Henry, shit... another Catholican!! what the hell... why are there so many catholicans around me!!?!? well, then he's a nice guy, he actually knows who's weikwan!! hm... LIVE FRIENDSTER! sucky!

then went to gym for a jog then do stepping... supposedly exerted enough to burn 240 Cal... don't know that's equivalent to how much food? anyone know? tell me please?!!

Dinner was at hall 2 Canteen... and plus... bought stuffs at supermart... things like eggs, banana, bread, milk... Commented that should not eat too much if not sure die la.. fat till die!! the the cashier auntie overhear conversations... and remarked:" neng che shi fu, look at those peopel in the tsunami incident" hai... poor thing it is...

Yesterday in the evening there was this news about this sch in particular did a minute of mournin for the peopel who died in the tsunami incident... Please give careful consideration... * is it the sch who wanted to do mourning so ask the news reporter over? or * is it the news reporter go there kpo and resulted the primary sch to come up with the idea of mourning? Would there be such coincidence?! haiz... so much RARA!!!!

What else did i do... oh well, i went library... and i've actually did the online overloading and actually not i have 22AUs!! what the hell... Marketing as my general elective, and comparative society as my prescribed elective.. so this semester! i hope i'll be so busy that i have absolutely no time to breathe! hence no time to be bothered about other thigns in life.. especially things involving relationship... they are too time comsuming and they are certainly too brain ctaxing... Then again, i hope that's if my mind is strong enough... that i can withstand all these.. i've already too into consideration... that i will be left with 2 situations 1. either i'll be so successful in studying my own stuffs and be so damn bloody busy... i'll have no problem with relationships and that i'll be able to do well for my studies.. that's what will happen if i can concentrate well... then again senario 2. i'll flop everything... cos a woman is afterall a woman.. it's like in the genes.. and in her blood that she can give up everything for the man she loves... for the children she bears?! ain't i right?!!? Anyway.... i hope the former will happen...

Well, well, i'll be an all rounder student this semester... with stuffs from engineering... business and humanities... haha...

Frankly, i'm very troubled... every night and morning when it's quiet... i can help.. but hte past painful memories from 2004 keep haunting me... making me feel very afraid... very inconfident... and very fragile... i feel that i'm too weak to emotions... and ii don't belong here... cos i can't cope... well... i hope i can get over it so quickly... i need it...

Anyway.. i still owe a few entries... those from my KL trip... Then again.. not about owing you.. but more about wanting everything to be in here.. so that someday i can print them out and keep as a diary.....

Today is tuesday... 11.10am, going for lessons in an hour's time... wish me luck... i need a lot of luck and best wishes!!

~AuRo`Na~
Wednesday, January 05, 2005