AsPire To InSpiRe... BefoRe U eXpire...

from a book...

Wednesday, December 29, 2004

These are what i found from a book- STILL THINKING OF YOU( EVEN THOUGH I SHUOLDN"T BE) ... something which i feel depicts how people... how i feel about life...

- All the stuffs, all the stupid cliches, were true. Love did make you feel complete and important. It did drive meaning into a previously rather questionable existence. It did make you look at sticky kids and think 'one day'. It did make birds suddenly appear.

*Love does make wonders...

-I hated them all. I wished none of them had existed, but, as they had, i had this weird, illogical fantasy. I wanted to be every firl he's ever touched. The one that took his virginity, the college girls, the white ones, the black ones, the holiday flings, the air hostess, the ones he had loved, the stripper he slept with in Amsterdam for a bet. Even the ones he couldn't remember the names of.

*i know it sounded very freaky... for a guy... but that what i thought of... and... someone.. in some book had depict the whole of how i wanted the situation to be like... Indeed daunting... but the jealousy in me.. i think is too much to even think of... too terrible... Everyone sees me as someone who can have fun... play and take everything on the lighter side... But really... i'm not that kind... to matters of the heart... nothing... absolutely... nothing can i take it lightly... nothing can i be non chalent about... i do pity all those guys who have been with me... they have to have gd tolerance...

-It's impossible. What you want is impossible. It's such a waste of emotional energy being jealous of someone's past. I don't want to be part of Rich's past- It's far more important being his future. And in fact everyone has a past.

*this is a reply in the book of what was written further up... only to the end of the book that the women who gave this reply... actually is prone to jealousy.. and it almost caused her her marriage...

~AuRo`Na~
Wednesday, December 29, 2004