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Self Satisfaction?!

Thursday, November 18, 2004

We are often trying out best to satisfy others... in the expense of ourselves...
Something to ponder about?

Should we more concern with how others feel or more bothered with our own emotions?

Just when i entered NTU... My brother actually asked me if bioengineering is the course which i want to enter... Frankly, i don't know.. then again.. it's more of... not knowing what exactly is best for myself.. than not knowing if bioengineering is the one for me...

time has passed... and it's already the end of a semester... my exams have come to an end... eveyrthing's over... and frankly... i still don't know what's good and what's not for me...

I've lent a sum of money to this very good friend (of 13 years) of mine... and i ended up losing a friendship... and that... not getting the sum of money back... So terribly upset.... that... someone.. whom i see as one who takes pride in loyalty and friendship... being able to uproot that... years of trust... She leads a life of luxury... groom herself well enough... yet can't even pay such a small sum (consider to the amount she spend on her food and whatever) of money...

Anyway.... i'm sory of sinking into a depression state again... I feel that there's so much hope in the world... but many times... we can only keep hoping.. cos.. if the world is so beautiful.. there's no such thing as evil... satan... God... and whatever... hah...

This saturday.. which is 2 days later.. is my exam for English... but i'm not hopeful... have been soing well for the assignments.. but haven't done well.. for any English papers.. since JC2... Cos of some unforeseen circumstances... i failed my GP.. Again.. in NTU... something happened.. and i failed... my Qualifying English Test.... have been trying hard to prevent anything that will make me upset once again.. and do badly for my coming.. English Proficiency exam... but.. hm.. i hope it'll all turn out well...

Well, life is beautiful... i think we should always... try our best to satify others.. but not to the extent of self happiness... Well... It always take 2 hands to clap.. we always have to give and take... giving and receiving are just part of our life... no one can keep giving... We need to receive...

So... Which kind soul.. won't mind.. giving me something?! Love? Care? concern? attention?
*giggles*

~AuRo`Na~
Thursday, November 18, 2004