AsPire To InSpiRe... BefoRe U eXpire...

~Quotes~

A Blithe Heart Makes A Blooming Visage...
We give up leisure in order that wemay have leisure...
If you're great at something, tell everyone. If you're GREAT at something, they'll tell u...
L.U.C.K~ Laboring Under Correct Knowledge
There is no intrinsic truth hidden in the experiences and encounters of life...

~May our wishes come true~

I'm cold...

Tuesday, November 30, 2004

It's the december holiday once again.. weather is getting cooler.... But will never be as cool as in the past decembers... due to greenhouse effect i suppose... I feel even colder in my heart... I feel lost... i'm sorrry to bore you people who are reading my blog down... don't mean it.. i want to be happy... but i can't.. i feel sad... lost... i called him once again... an hour later... but no one picks up the phone... I've always cast aside all my activities... for him... and in the end... i receive nothing...

I hate life like this... i really hate it this way...
It was never like this... till i entered NTU... it's the worse part of my life... i really don't like this...
I don't want it to be obligation... i want it to be LOVE...
I seems to have LOVE and LOST.... then again... if i knew i am to lose... i'd rather not have love... It hurts so much to fall so deep.. then suddenly... feel as though... there's nothing at all...

Was looking through friendster... then i found that... in there... those who are in relationship seems so happy... but what about me.. what about getting the photos of me and him in...
Life is bad enough with parental objection... and it's even worse now... With a lover's objection of 'being in love'...

Perhaps.. i should stand on my own... actually.. i know i should... there's not perhaps.. perhaps... perhaps... then again.. he's a bugger.. who made me so dependent on him.. that now... i find it hard to live...

I have my own difficulties... i have myself to overcome... it's just so sad... that... i'm intelligent in a way... to know who's lying to me.. and how some people have things up their sleeves... I don't mean to be suspicious.. but i can't help it... Someone please help me... to not think that much... Thinking gives me headache... thinking makes my heart ache...

~AuRo`Na~
Tuesday, November 30, 2004