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Friday, October 15, 2004

Ah.. somebody please help me.. i'm in a very bad situation... I love my hall people, and i wanna stay in thie hall very very very badly... But, there are somethings which i don't really have a say in, about my life, that is... I wanna be in the FOC 2005 for hall #13.. very badly, but i've stopped CK from joining the FOC for UOC next year. the reason is not that i'm selfish in a way... but rather, i can't go through the same torture i had this year.. The way i felt for like few months, just becos of going to the UOC, i'm so hurt that i hate it and i want nothing to do with it.. neither do i want him to so with it... But Hall #13 people are nice.. and people from my OG are definitely the best.. just went to celebrate Benedict's birthday and feel so good with all those people around.. they are just so fun.. it's so good to get to know more of these hall #13 people... hm... Maybe i should go talk to CK, moreover, next year, when he go for his attachment, i need all these hall people for company... and that.. good company... i suppose... And i don't wanna move hall, i don't wanna move to a hall where people are not nice.. and i need to get to know new people again... i mean.. i'm giving him respect too.. that, by asking him for "permission"... yeah? anyway, it's only 4 days... and i'll promise to call him.. promise to look up on him whenever i'm free?!?! hm... i really love this hall, this is the place where i hang out, in the most unhappy time in my life after he was in UOC... Ben... Jack... Daphane... JX... TK... ah.. all of them.. help me through these period of time.. i love all these people... And, well, i think i have to tell him how much i don wanna change a hall... the reasons for wanting to be part of the hall camp.. and be frank... and that.. if he still want to be in the UOC, i have nothing to say.. cos i feel that it's not about being fair.. but rather being.. treated well... I've been missing all those part of my hall stuffs.. and i don't wish to miss anymore.. moreover, Jack promise to back me up.. and excuse me from all those preparation work... and... well, i need the points too.. and having fun.. plus.. the points... haha.. gd choice.. i hope i get it.. without making him upset... without making other people upset... yeah?!?! indeed it's ok to travel with CK back and fro school.. but it's not easy for me, when i'm alone in school... They are a bunch of friends whom i don't want to miss out.. and we very much like to be in a group.. or at least i think so la....

I love my Baby.. but i very much wanna be here.. in Hall #13 too...

Oh yeah.. a very big HAPPY BIRTHDAY to BENEDICT!!!!! *smuacks*

~AuRo`Na~
Friday, October 15, 2004