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it's me... making a big fuss...

Saturday, September 18, 2004

So.. i heard him explain to me today.. he's such a darling.. or rather.. i'm a darling.. that's why he's nice to me.. hm... He was at home last night... bcos of him.. i couldn't slp.. and eat... i slpt at 4 am.. and work up at 9+.. so sad right...

But dear friends.. show me some emphathy.. the other time in union camp... he left me alone when i was sick.. and yesterday till this afternoon.. i felt the same way as i did the other time.. when we were in camp... So sad... i feel so vunerable... in this relationship.. never felt like this b4....

He bought me a Moo Moo.. on the 1.5 yrs anniversary day... actually.. he's a dumb bf.. so when i want something.. i really have to ask.. he's nothing of sort of romantic and stuffs.. but can't blame him.. he has his goods too... that's faithfulness. seomthing that u can trust.. throw him to a 1000 whore.. n he'll remain a virgin.. coming back to your side.. that's the kind of trust...
Well, but i didn't say i trust the girls ard him...

Ok.. so today.. got new story... the other time.. in UOC there was this night event.. at China black... and he has this gf of his.. or rather these few gfs... trying to plot somthing.. which is A likes him.. n B nA come up with an idea.. for A to pretend.. to be drunk.. and ask CK to take care of her.. as in B told him to take care of her... so he did.. when he took care of her.. she definitely try things and stunts to tell him how much she likes her and stuffs... then till today.. he told me about what happened.. according to him.. he just got to know it too... ok... so.... then it's her b'dae this sat.. or sun.. then asked himt o go.. until.. recently.. she kept calling n msging him.. n he stop replying.. then she gave up.. anyway.. now everyone knows he has a GF--me! from his friendster statues... so that's gd.... well..

Kinda sad.. told him that.. i want it,... from now on that he make it clear to everyone who wants to get close.. that he has a GF.. i want everything clear cut.. i want to be cherished... okok?!!? well.. of course he agreed la... and.. he's kinda sweet... this is what he said....

*cocky*
17/09/04
08:36PM
Moo moo... My dear, i love you so much you know...
You are the light of my life...

I'm so glad to receive this.. been quite a long time.. since i got something nice... he's such a babe today...

hm.. well, everything's over.. and i've also told him that i dont' wanna play the mising game with him anymore.. feel so lost w/o him... yest sent him this message...

hm.. was so upset.. yet have to pretend like i'm so damn zai....

today's suppose to be a study day for me.. but last night.. slpt late.. n can't concentrate.. Then today.. actually asked aigu n victor n lawrence.. and etc. to study.. in the end. i slping in my room.. hahah... wat the hacK! And went to meet tutor today.. in the end like tok cock to him.. tell him about msging.. and how lousy my sch is.. haha.. i mean.. results wise la... hm.. what else?!?!!? hm... nothing la.. i meeting preston for a meal tml.. haha.. kway chap.. at my mummy's place... wait till i think of what to write.. then i'll bblog in some more.. oh. yeah.. i'll cut and paste the things i said to him...

here it is....

i love u dear... n i've never been so vunerable in a relationship b4... NEVER... perhaps cos i've never put in this much b4... i may say that i don't care.. and don't bother.. but i know that u do know that... i'm just doing so cos talk is cheap... u r very impt to me... and i don't want to lose u... so don ever give me the feeling that i'll lose u... can... i'm very sensitive.. though i appear to be very very strong.. i'm strong-willed and determined.. or whatever in many ways... but not when it comes to you.. When it's about you.. i'm just a plain me... I've decided... all i want is happiness... and that's why... i want you.. don't give up on me.. like u wanted to the other time... i don't want to lose you.. cherish me.. i want to do so too!

It's sure... mushy.. budden.. for him ma....

~AuRo`Na~
Saturday, September 18, 2004