AsPire To InSpiRe... BefoRe U eXpire...

For him....

Monday, September 27, 2004

This is something i wrote for CK....
breaking up will not be an option yet... this is all i have to say to you.. cos.. despite of all that irritation n upsetting moments u brought to me.. i have yet think about breaking up... and don think tat by breaking up on my behalf is a generous act of yours by doing me a favor.. cos i if i can let go n be happier without you.. i'd have done so long ago... Moreover, i know we are still in love with each other.. and we very much know that i understand u well enuf.. in a way or another.. and i believe u r rather happy tat way.. so many times.. even though we have all those family objections n stuffs.. we have not given up... I feel taht sometimes i give myself up for you.. too many a times.. tha ti lose my own dignity... it's ok... IF u even bother to treat me well enuf... of what i deserve... but tat's if u even bother to... I urge u to think carefully of wat u wan to say... to me... or how u wanna react later... I LOVE U,.. but i can't deny that i have my needs to be satisfied by u.. on ur part too.. if not i'll be just one who loves. bitterly... n i noe... u'll do ur part..

if it does makes me happy.. cos i've seen u done it for me.. before.. and those times. i felt just like an .... THanks.. dear...

~AuRo`Na~
Monday, September 27, 2004

I want to take control of my own time!

Thursday, September 23, 2004

It's now 2.51am... in the morning of the supposed next day.. Thursday... And it's only now that i have time for this.. my bloggy...

Had a physics quiz this morning.. then a maths quiz... then took back material science paper.. had econs tutorial.. then went lunching with Yuanfeng, Aigu, Victor, Jiahui.. how can i miss out Alecia.. haah.. Ok.. the morning was not that bad.. then went back to hall.

My "Wash my clothes" day... i've declared! n.. yes.. i did wash my clothes.. and hm.. not that a bad afternoon spent.. doing my online tutorial... Then went to the SRC with Alecia for a 2.4 run.. for my 2 points for hall stay.. haah.. Wah piang.. no training and yet i've clocked.. 12:10 haha.. the best ever timing i've got.. i have to say that i'm lousy.. ( best time yet so long) hump!!

Yeap.. then went GYM.. hm.. my CK is so stressed up.. so.. i sort of understood it.. n i invited him to the NIE gym.. which after i met him.. i PS alecia n her roomie.. liling?!

Poor Cocky.. so stressed up.. have to try to relax him a little.. talk cock with him lor.. ahah.. then... i said that i have to go back to hall for meeting.. and do stuffs.. but he wants me to go study with him.. 'pei' him.. So well, actually i did... and.. now i feel so useles. so manipulated.. and in many ways.. in his control.. i should have said NO! why did i say yes?!? ah.. i'm so useless..

But don't worry girl.. i'll try to do some... um.... whatever u call that.. should no longer be like this.. it's only men at our knees.. not we at theirs...

I'm pretty upset that he used his notes to whack my head... hm.. n demanded for an apology.. waited for that for a long time.. an use many methods. well.. at least i got it in the end...

I had to walk back to hall alone these days.. and it's quite sad... most of these days.. i've been at his beck n call.. bringing drink.. food n jacket for him.. then.. have to walk back.. i'm useless right. or rather him!?!!? ahahah.... we are strong women.. we can stand on our own! ahahh....

Hm.... so so so so so so.... Manipulated?!!?!!

~AuRo`Na~
Thursday, September 23, 2004

`TAO HUA YUN`

Wednesday, September 22, 2004

hm.. What's 'Tao Hua Yun' in Chinese?!?!?
I mean.. this RJC guy.. n my guy friends.. n my BF.. haha.. that RJC says i'm one of the girls he likes... hm.. in LUCK man.. Lester Lim is asking me out for a movie date.. but i'm not very interested... RJC guy ask me out for a jog and a dinner date.. AH.... this is mad... well, i do know where my heart lies but all this is kinda fun.. haha.. interesting.. Anyway.. not everything is always good...

Jenson! so angry with me.. so pissed off with me.. keep saying that i've changed and stuffs... I mean.. i'm stil me lor.. i may curse and swear.. but people around me.. agnes... Siewfern.. Jieyang... please.. speak up for me.. tell him that i just crap a lot!!

Anyway.. tomorrow is Physics quiz... n i've not yet finish studying everythign.. well indeed ifi do know everything.. i might as well be a prof.. why study?!!! hahaha..

My bf-CK mouthed this yesterday... "MARRY ME" ... Should i agree?

~AuRo`Na~
Wednesday, September 22, 2004

A Dozen of ponder...

Tuesday, September 21, 2004

1. I love you not because of who you are, but because of who I am when I am with you.
2. No man or woman is worth your tears, and the one who is, won't make you cry.
3. Just because someone doesn't love you the way you want them to, doesn't mean they don't love you with all they have.
4. A true friend is someone who reaches for your hand and touches your heart.
5. The worst way to miss someone is to be sitting right beside them knowing you can't have them.
6. Never frown, even when you are sad, because you never know who is falling in love with your smile.
7. To the world you may be one person, but to one person you may be the world.
8. Don't waste your time on a man/woman, who isn't willing to waste their time on you.
9. Maybe God wants us to meet a few wrong people before meeting the right one, so that when we finally meet the person, we will know how to be grateful.
10. Don't cry because it is over, smile because it happened.
11. There's always going to be people that hurt you so what you have to do is keep on trusting and just be more careful about who you trust next time around.
12. Make yourself a better person and know who you are before you try and know someone else and expect them to know you.

~AuRo`Na~
Tuesday, September 21, 2004

*girl power* #04

Monday, September 20, 2004

Hey... this is now a tip... for you to be a smart women.. hm....
How do i define a smart women?!!?
Ans: Not one who score Aces... Or one who can do house work... But one who can do both... Well, what do i mean... learn how to act stoopid?!?! haha...

*Girl Power* Club
Motto: GF rock ur world... BF rock the cradle...

Rulez #04
^Keep Ur cool.. n men are just easily controlled... u can simply wrap them around your fingers^
When ur men says... 1.. u say 1... When he says 2... u say 2... when he say u stupid... u bow doen ur head a little.. and act... sad.. then u say it in the softest tone u can ever make urself say... *though u should be angry... keep cool* say this:" dear? u really think i stupid arh... then u still love me not" Girls... me.. i here.. gurantee.. plus chop.. he'll reply with "no la.. dear.. u so cute"... Haha.. tested.. and proven to work.. more than a hundred times....

Always know how to control the situation.. we are coolz.. n we can control out state.. n our lives.. It's sometime.. not about getting your right.. my dear darling little girls.. it's about... hm... Manipulating.. the situation.. and getting them all to your wants... and as women.. we are generous! so we will always adopt the policy +WIN-WIN situation+... In this way.. we carry on with our high class image.. by keeping coolz. n steady.. n at the same time.. controlling out temper.. n we r the most capable women... by being able to take charge.. in the very unknown manner... hm... That's what i call... wits, beauty, intelligence n capability.. all in one!

So cheers girls... remember.. we rock the world.. n men=jerks... muahahah......

-signed off-
Your Pres...

~AuRo`Na~
Monday, September 20, 2004

*girl power* #03

Suppose to be studying.. but not studying... should be watching tv.. but tv behind me.. so my hair's watching la..
Yesterday was talking to Carl.. my jc classmate... till like 5 am!! hahah.i siao!!! never study again...
Well, that's how i came up with my Rulez #03!

*Girl Power*
Motto: Gf rock ur world... Bf rock ur cradle...

RuleZ #03
Play galz... Just play!!! Flirt.. girls.. just flirt... Cos if u don't.. other girls will... and if u don't... ur BF will!!!!
For those in Uni.. go flirt with those.. handsome... rich.. smart people...
For those not in Uni.. my advice... go Uni to flirt... if not get your friends from uni to intro you!! hahah...
Cos, basically.. Guys in Uni are gd... at least they are capable.. but in Uni... must look for the locals... cos they changed after NS...
According to my RuleZ #01.. u have to bother ur bf... But do it at the expense of their time.. not yours..
That's do it.. knowing that... in you.. u r still rather NON-CHALENT!
okok?!!? They don't deserve u la!! Women are to be cherished.. loved.... We're not to be taken for granted...
Care for your own happiness okok....

-signed off-
Your Pres...
*Girl Power*

Well, CK pissed me off last night.. don't allow me to throw tantrum.. though i always help him cover up... sucky!
Men=JERKS

~AuRo`Na~
Monday, September 20, 2004

True Beauty...

Sunday, September 19, 2004

ok.. now my toopid bf is out with his friends.. yucks... Evo pple.. (from UOC)... he promise to be hm by 9.. hm.. we shall see... talk is cheap.. but i take talking very seriously when it comes to this sort of matter... well maybe i shouldn't be that bad.. but haha... wait a minute...

*Girl Power Club*
RuleZ No #2
No girls should mess with you... or your bf!
If they do... Don't ever give them face! Give them a tight slp on their FACE!
Cos if u ever give them face... they'll think that u can be bulllied... but no girls in my club should be bullied... we can only pretend to be bullied... hm... and if ur bf who's girl friend has kana slapped by you.. and demand for u to give an apology... SLAP UR BF TOO! and remember... give him a tight one... THAT'S SLAP HIM GOODBYE!!!

remember...
*GIRL POWER*

-signed off-
president of *GIRL POWER CLUB*

Let's honour Women of this world...

Why beautiful ladies cry.... check this out....

A little boy asked his mother "Why are you crying?"
"Because I'm a woman," she told him.
"I don't understand," he said.
His mum just hugged him and said, "And you never will"
Later the little boy asked his father, "Why does mother seem to cry for no reason?"
"All women cry for no reason," was all his dad could say.
The little boy grew up and became a man, still wondering why women cry.
Finally he put in a call to God; and when God got on the phone, he asked, "God, why do women cry so easily?"
God said: "When I made the woman she had to be special. I made her shoulders strong enough to carry the weight of the world; yet, gentle enough to give comfort"
"I gave her an inner strength to endure childbirth and the rejection that many times comes from her children"
"I gave her a hardness that allows her to keep going when everyone else gives up, and take care of her family through sickness and fatigue without complaining "
"I gave her the sensitivity to love her children under any and all circumstances, even when her child has hurt her very badly"
"I gave her strength to carry her husband through his faults and fashioned her from his rib to protect his heart"
"I gave her wisdom to know that a good husband never hurts his wife, but sometimes tests her strengths and her resolve to stand beside him unfalteringly"
"And finally, I gave her a tear to shed. This is hers exclusively to use whenever it is needed."
"You see: The beauty of a woman is not in the clothes she wears, the figure that she carries, or the way she combs her hair."
"The beauty of a woman must be seen in her eyes, because that is the doorway to her heart * the place where love resides."

Every Woman is Beautiful.

MEn.. look at us.. and compare how beautiful our boops look.. girls... cherish men... who looks into our eyes and tell us how beautiful u look.. only marry the men who can give you happiness... don't marry the may who makes u upset...

Nothing is perfect in this world.. u always give one thing for the exchange of another... Don't marry a handsome dashing guy... unless his heart is as dashing... don't not marry a guy cos of his old fashioned dressing... We all have to look inside... Look inside each and everyone of us... look inside.. at the angel within us... That's where u can fine true beauty...

*Only when u experience true happiness.. can u glow from within.. that's when i call that... True beauty...*

~AuRo`Na~
Sunday, September 19, 2004

it's me... making a big fuss...

Saturday, September 18, 2004

So.. i heard him explain to me today.. he's such a darling.. or rather.. i'm a darling.. that's why he's nice to me.. hm... He was at home last night... bcos of him.. i couldn't slp.. and eat... i slpt at 4 am.. and work up at 9+.. so sad right...

But dear friends.. show me some emphathy.. the other time in union camp... he left me alone when i was sick.. and yesterday till this afternoon.. i felt the same way as i did the other time.. when we were in camp... So sad... i feel so vunerable... in this relationship.. never felt like this b4....

He bought me a Moo Moo.. on the 1.5 yrs anniversary day... actually.. he's a dumb bf.. so when i want something.. i really have to ask.. he's nothing of sort of romantic and stuffs.. but can't blame him.. he has his goods too... that's faithfulness. seomthing that u can trust.. throw him to a 1000 whore.. n he'll remain a virgin.. coming back to your side.. that's the kind of trust...
Well, but i didn't say i trust the girls ard him...

Ok.. so today.. got new story... the other time.. in UOC there was this night event.. at China black... and he has this gf of his.. or rather these few gfs... trying to plot somthing.. which is A likes him.. n B nA come up with an idea.. for A to pretend.. to be drunk.. and ask CK to take care of her.. as in B told him to take care of her... so he did.. when he took care of her.. she definitely try things and stunts to tell him how much she likes her and stuffs... then till today.. he told me about what happened.. according to him.. he just got to know it too... ok... so.... then it's her b'dae this sat.. or sun.. then asked himt o go.. until.. recently.. she kept calling n msging him.. n he stop replying.. then she gave up.. anyway.. now everyone knows he has a GF--me! from his friendster statues... so that's gd.... well..

Kinda sad.. told him that.. i want it,... from now on that he make it clear to everyone who wants to get close.. that he has a GF.. i want everything clear cut.. i want to be cherished... okok?!!? well.. of course he agreed la... and.. he's kinda sweet... this is what he said....

*cocky*
17/09/04
08:36PM
Moo moo... My dear, i love you so much you know...
You are the light of my life...

I'm so glad to receive this.. been quite a long time.. since i got something nice... he's such a babe today...

hm.. well, everything's over.. and i've also told him that i dont' wanna play the mising game with him anymore.. feel so lost w/o him... yest sent him this message...

hm.. was so upset.. yet have to pretend like i'm so damn zai....

today's suppose to be a study day for me.. but last night.. slpt late.. n can't concentrate.. Then today.. actually asked aigu n victor n lawrence.. and etc. to study.. in the end. i slping in my room.. hahah... wat the hacK! And went to meet tutor today.. in the end like tok cock to him.. tell him about msging.. and how lousy my sch is.. haha.. i mean.. results wise la... hm.. what else?!?!!? hm... nothing la.. i meeting preston for a meal tml.. haha.. kway chap.. at my mummy's place... wait till i think of what to write.. then i'll bblog in some more.. oh. yeah.. i'll cut and paste the things i said to him...

here it is....

i love u dear... n i've never been so vunerable in a relationship b4... NEVER... perhaps cos i've never put in this much b4... i may say that i don't care.. and don't bother.. but i know that u do know that... i'm just doing so cos talk is cheap... u r very impt to me... and i don't want to lose u... so don ever give me the feeling that i'll lose u... can... i'm very sensitive.. though i appear to be very very strong.. i'm strong-willed and determined.. or whatever in many ways... but not when it comes to you.. When it's about you.. i'm just a plain me... I've decided... all i want is happiness... and that's why... i want you.. don't give up on me.. like u wanted to the other time... i don't want to lose you.. cherish me.. i want to do so too!

It's sure... mushy.. budden.. for him ma....

~AuRo`Na~
Saturday, September 18, 2004

sack CK

Friday, September 17, 2004

i'm gonna sack my bf soon.. it's like 5.17pm now.. and for today ... he hasn't even call me or anthing... i'm so like damn boody pissed!!!! ah....

today is suppose to be a more productived day.. tml meeting prof.. hope it'll be a better day..

He doesn't call or msg me.. i'll get suspicious.. tat he's out with girls. the union pple.. well.. i guess. it's really try.. Tok and i both agree.. when one has made a mistake.. he/she is highly watch?!?! @@!!

Haiz.. screw the world.. damn sianzzzzzzzzzz....................

Life screws you!!!

Life sux so do U!
i wanna sack him!!!
i hate him for this day of mine!!

~AuRo`Na~
Friday, September 17, 2004

*girl power club*

As chairperson of *Girl Power* Club... Let me announce..

MOTTO: gf rock your world.... bf rock the cradle...

RuleZ #01...
Never be afraid to bother your bf... Cos if you don't do so... you're just giving the chance to other girls... {nan ren fan jian}

~AuRo`Na~
Friday, September 17, 2004

bookz... diseasezz...

Thursday, September 16, 2004

~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ah............... the books got spirit!!!!

I seriously think there's a sleeping disease that i've just got contact with... And i think it's spreading around NTU.. but mainly.. infecting people like me... not immuned by scholarship.. or Poly education..

Alamak... is there um.. some injection or whatever... tat i can take.. to cleanse myself of that disease.. otherwise.. i'm dzoing off all the time when my books spread right in front of me... can't help it.. it's like.. aye.. don't slp... *with eyes closing*... don't slp... n b4 i know it.. i'm asleep!!! what the hacK!!

Anway, i just came back from a chalet... was nothing much.. a one night complimentary.. stay.. end up.. at night.. reading my physics text book.. wah.. so much for a chalet thingy right.. hahaah...

Now. i'm back in school.. hall.. sux!!! back to reality... why must it be this way.. and i've just slept for an hour again. what the hacK!

Things has been pretty well.. but i think it's because it's the holiday la... haha.. did i mention he made a comment that he wanna marry me... hm... well.. i have to consider....

~AuRo`Na~
Thursday, September 16, 2004

testing...

Wednesday, September 15, 2004

Testing.. testing.. haha.. thanks to CTIS or CITS of NTU!! yeah.. man.. that's why i say this is a gd sch.. my laptop is safe and sound now.. though.. maybe these few days gonna bring the laptop down to let them do a check up....

hm.. sorry.. feeling frustrated and irritated.. to ad in something good... so..

~AuRo`Na~
Wednesday, September 15, 2004

*something's wrong...*

Tuesday, September 14, 2004

Something is wrong with my laptop?!!?! is it cos it's too old already or what?!!? anyone.. can help.. please!!!! i'm rather desperate!!! don't know what's wrong!!!! don't ask.. i'll pissed you off.. and i'll be pissed off too!!! unless you think you're good enough and can help!! if not then you sure can come over to help.. if not don't try to offer to help!!!

~AuRo`Na~
Tuesday, September 14, 2004

1.5 years liao....

Monday, September 13, 2004

Why...
Is 1.5 years enough for a relationship to become stagnant?!!?
hm... Have not received a gift from my man for around half a year... So... actually i just sent a msg to him.. this is the content:" can you buy a gift for me... Don't ask me what... Like the hp decor that you bought for me.. i want something that i can wear, put on... or use it... and something that i can go around telling people that it's from my darling.." Can?

hai.. any idiot should know that it's a hint that i haven't receive anything for a long time.. and that it's time he really ought to do something about it right??!?! haahhah..... Anyway.. hope he doesn't even bother to reply anything to this msg!! cos i think the only right thingy to do is to get his butt off what ever shit he's doing!! don't care even if he's studying real hard!~!! i want my gift... better be of good taste my boy!!!

Will be seeing him later.. he's not the romantic kinda person at all. though. but i do hope that iu'll get something nice from him.. i just miss the feeling of being showered with a gift... HAIZ..........

~AuRo`Na~
Monday, September 13, 2004

Fed by SAF

Sunday, September 12, 2004

yeap yeap.. My entry from now on will be so much lesser than usual.. cos don't know why.. can't use my own laptop.... can't seem to type anything for my entry.. the whole thingy like kana block!! so if anyone of you know how to solve this problem please let me know... okok..

~Don't know why.. keep having this feeling that CK will betray me in a way or another.. there's no concrete evidence.. budden.. it's like an intuition thingy...~
So here is my story...

meet up with quite a number of people these few days... some.. i can't disclose who.. but others.. are people like preston.. my ex classmate from JC and Jeremy... my friend from sec time tuition class... Used to think he's a nerd... budden... today changed my image of him.. look so much more charming and handsome... compare to last time.. especially.. now without his spects on.. He used to go to tuition with his mum's company.. think that's quite admirable.. cos big guy... yet.. not ashamed to have mummy's company... so gd... today find it a little weird when i don't see him with his mummy... Well, he says that the girl he likes has flown off.. hai.. okok.. never went out with him b4.. at all.. for the years that i've known him.. that's like since sec 2... haha... surprise that he asked me out.. so for convenient sake.. eat prata at nearby place.. haha...

Well.. then went to a wake.. my cousin's granddad.... haiz.. quite sad.. people are dying... don't know why... Used to see him when i was young.. he used to have a kelong.. and was so happy and carefree... so healthy... after the gov took back the kelong.. or rather.. took away his life... That's so sad!!! screw the gov.!!!! hate it... developed every single place.... make the whole place so concrete... alamak!!! shit!!

Ok... got more things that happened la.. but only people who are closer to me will know.. can't possible post all secrets online.. if you wanna know more.. ask me la.. then I'll be the judge to whether or not to tell you!!!!?!?! hahaha..

Oh yeah.. i've been with CK for 1.5 years... that's 18 month... 540 days... 12960 hours...777600 minutes... 46656000 seconds... seems along time.. frankly.. i don't think so.. it's too short a time span compare to a life time... well.. hopefully true love reigns!!! Well, i do LOVE him...

~AuRo`Na~
Sunday, September 12, 2004

OK... Can say something liao....

Saturday, September 11, 2004

Was damn bloody upset.. when saw that his friendster's status was " Single"... Too heartbroken to say a thingy... The last time i felt like this.. this kinda terrible upset'ness was when i was in union camp.. till when i went home... cos i was sick... *for more details read the july blog*... Why do i feel so damn bloody upset.. cos this is not the first time he did this to me... the other time was last year.. about the friendster status... wanted him to change.. budden.. he refuse to or rather.. he chose to delete the whole account away.. at that time. i felt so upset cos it was like.. he'd rather delete it away and lose whatever than to tell people that he has a girlfriend.. moreover, his ex gf who still likes him was in his friendster list.. what the hack right?!?!?

So actually last year, we already had a quarrel over this...

Then he called... was suppose to come over to my hall.. but instead he was already at home... haiz.. that one never mind.. cos everything also not ok unless he's doing his work or he's at home la... if not i'll be damn bloody pissed off lor...

Ok.. then he called.. and then got worked up cos i refuse to ell him why i'm unhappy.. so yesterday.. i mean.. what the hack.. who can tolerate their own bf.. calling pple "DARLING" right in front of themselves.. moreover to peopel whom i'm not good with even.. some Malaysian.. well..... just generally.. i never like malaysian.. yucks?!?!!?!

Then... then told tim everything.. whatever i'm unhappy with la.. then... surprisingly.. he didnt' feel pisssed.. i think my reason for everything this time was very valid... I'm HURT ONCE... I DON"T DESERVE TO BE HURT AGAIN!!!! I sincerely think so... so that's about it.. cos that TOOPID jenson... staring at me from the back.. don't know how to write anymore... la... alamak?!!?!?

Oh ya.. he refuse to make any comments.. he said he'll leave everything to when he sees me face to face... and only said a "I LOVE YOU"....

AN UPSET MOI...

~AuRo`Na~
Saturday, September 11, 2004

too sad to say a word..

~~~~~~~~~~~~sound of silence~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

~AuRo`Na~
Saturday, September 11, 2004

full... tired... and sleepy...

Friday, September 10, 2004

Well... full tired and sleep are brothers ma.. they always come together.... that explains.. why you feel this way most of the time.. when you just had your meal... Hm.. a more scientific explaination... your blood rushes to the gastric.. hence.. leaving you with less blood for your brain.. no food for your brain.. how can your body work right!??!!?!?

Yeah.. today.. hmm.. or rather.. these few days... Have been busy with quizzes... andwhatever... i'm SOOOOOOOOOooooooooooooo tired now... lethargic.. exhausted.. having ton few nights.. or rather.. not really ton la.. on tuesday night.. was so kan cheong.. that i scared material science will come out all those calculation question.. but in the end.. nothing.. all theoretical work!?!? alamak.. haha.. got people copy and discuss during the quiz.. aha... so funny.. so interesing.. Then life science quiz.. got 29/40... alamak.. don't know how.. i think it's quite bad.. yuan feng got 35/40... haiz.. will he and aigu this kinda pple get into dean's list??!?

Yeap. so these few days have been good.. my phone is now blinking... the colour light... should be.. *cocky* sending me a msg.. alamak.. better not be a reminder to ask me go see doctor... hm... my bank acount is DRY.. no $$$ liao.. jia lart....

Hai.. sun sun sun.. pls stay up.... i wanna my clothes to dry up le.. tml still got more clothes to wash... ah.. CK's clothes... alamak... i mariah liao.. pple.. no study be mariah... me le... Come uni to be mariah... haiz....

Tell you people more.. again.. now very tired.. brain dead.. anyway.. have to prepare to go for lecture now.. see ya...

~AuRo`Na~
Friday, September 10, 2004

Mind...

Tuesday, September 07, 2004

Your Brain Usage Profile:
Auditory : 40%Visual : 60%Left : 44%Right : 55%No matter which side of your brain is dominant,M i n d W a r ecan strengthen your emotional brain power by helping you understand howyou feel about yourself

Elena, you possess an interesting balance of hemispheric and sensory characteristics, with a slight right-brain dominance and a slight preference for visual processing.
Since neither of these is completely centered, you lack the indecision and second-guessing associated with other patterns. You have a distinct preference for creativity and intuition with seemingly sufficient verbal skills to be able to translate in any meaningful way to yourself and others.

You tend to see things in "wholes" without surrendering the ability to attend to details. You can give them sufficient notice to be able to utitlize and incorporate them as part of an overall pattern.

In the same way, while you are active and process information simultaneously, you demonstrate a capacity for sequencing as well as reflection which allows for some "inner dialogue."

All in all, you are likely to be quite content with yourself and your style although at times it will not necessarily be appreciated by others. You have sufficient confidence to not second-guess yourself, but rather to use your critical faculties in a way that enhances, rather than limits, your creativity.

You can learn in either mode although far more efficiently within the visual mode. It is likely that in listening to conversations or lecture materials you simultaneously translate into pictures which enhance and elaborate on the meaning.

It is most likely that you will gravitate towards those endeavors which are predominantly visual but include some logic or structuring. You may either work particularly hard at cultivating your auditory skills or risk "missing out" on being able to efficiently process what you learn. Your own intuitive skills will at times interfere with your capacity to listen to others, which is something else you may need to take into account.

~AuRo`Na~
Tuesday, September 07, 2004

*Of no importance...*

Monday, September 06, 2004

Hm... wanna use this chance.. to give a trashing to people who keep passing my blog around.. i'm sure if not you.. if not you won't be reading it right now.. cos i've made changes to my blog website... Hm.. my aim is to give it to closer friends... Budden.. some people go pass it around.. and i'm damn bloody pissed off....

hm... wanna make a comment.. doubt someone will put in as much entry as i do right...

Relationship wise... getting better.. seems to be so good these few days.. that i can't believe it myself... he's treaing me with so much care and concern.. though a little insensitive at times.. but ok la.. not that bad liao.. in a conversation with him now.. was given so much smooches... that.. hm... well.. sercret.. i have my own way of handling my guy.. definitely.. i know how ot make him fall into me.. fall in love with me.. where the soft spot is.. and yeah.. make good use of it... men.. haha.. have them wrapped around the finger tips man.. hahahahahaha... *evil laughter*

Well... Nothing much to say actually.....

just a little something to people who bother to read my blog...

Learn to be happy.. try to be happy... And this is the reason why...

Only when you experience true happinesss... Will you then glow from within... That's when you look Simply... Beautiful...

~AuRo`Na~
Monday, September 06, 2004

Ist Karate session

This is something i wrote in June.. just thought it's kinda fun.. to revive that kinda impressed.. feeling!?! um... wow kinda thingy in me...

#My 1st Karate...#

~~~~~~~Never knew my boyfriend look so dashing in his... what's that cool... that uniform which pple are suppose to wear for karate training la.. "gee or???" nvm... he can outshine anyone. that macho voice when he's doing the count.. haha.. can't help but giggled a little... during training... Hm.. training.. isn't tough at all... but i think i'm just not up to it la... have been slacking for the past 6..7..8..9.. months.. the last time i went for trainin... haha.. muay thai.. long story man... Sorry.. if it bores you down.. but still can't get over the dasiness of my bf.. hahaah.... want to go there more often to see him.. the hunk... heee...~~~~~~~~entry comes late late

~AuRo`Na~
Monday, September 06, 2004

*WOMEN?!?*

http://img.photobucket.com/albums/v395/imelenaLJY/women.gif

Never mess with Women... we are who we are?!!? BASTARDS?!

~AuRo`Na~
Monday, September 06, 2004

I'm an A* girl...

Friday, September 03, 2004

Kana Hit man... hahaha.. This morning had my lab work... There's this "ham sup" lab tutor... Hahaha... so funny... He kept walking aorund the lab and made me the joke of my class... haha..

Now i'm known as the "A*" girl...

The tutor likes me.. like my drawing.. actually mesmorise by it.. that he keep talking to me.. telling me it's nice. neat and whatever.. that now my tutorial matess.. are making fun of me.. telling me" your work very neat.. very nice.." *with eyes roaming around me...*

Summary of what that tutor says...
1.u got such cute face...
2.ur work is very neat...
3.ur circle is nice...
4.don't worry, ur work sure A one...
5.u like singing?!
6.*drawn an A^star on my work* + ask me to see it for myself...
7. says my signature is nicer than my drawing... (my fren says tat he'll soon say i look nicer than my signature)
8.Took set square when i said i needed one...

Just now was damn happening.. the tutor call me.. then i'll go over.. budden.. after yuanfeng says he's ham sup.. haha.. don't even dare to return the tutor his set square and rulers...

I was thinking to keep my mouth shut for this lab.. since the other time.. kana RED marked by the other lab tutor.. but.. haizzzz...... Oh no.. that's it la.. haha... tutors?!?! hahah....

~AuRo`Na~
Friday, September 03, 2004

Treasure...

Something meaningful... i got from a friend...

" Nothing is permanent, all component things disintegrate, what comes must go, what is born must die, what rises must fall, fortune goes with misfortune, all meetings end in seperations, thus you can't dodge what Fate had in store for you.."

" Do not dwell in the past, do not dream of the future, concentrate the mind on the very present moment.."

Thus my dear friends, Life is vulnerable, treasure everyone. Believes everyone is equal and everything has a life in it.

" I once complained to God when i had no shoes, until i saw someone with no feets.."

~AuRo`Na~
Friday, September 03, 2004

he loves me?! he loves me not? he loves me?!?!

It indeed seems to be getting better.. my big baby... come over to look for me.. we had a good time chatting and cuddling.. went with him for his morning lesson.. lecture... hm...

Told tim to buy me a pair of slipper.. shoes.. but he didn't want to... haha. stingy?! i'm glad he didn't agree... maybe very modern girl.. but... nope.. i won't buy him shoes anyway.. once bought him is present TEVA slipper.. but insisted that he pay me half the amount.. cos... giving shoes... means.. "ba ta ge song zou".. So too bad.. still a little pantan...

I love him.. can't deny the fact... Opps... Then had lunch.. was peaceful... said nice things to me.. for frequent visitor to my blog.. hm.. you should see like almost nothing good has bee posted.. this may be one of the better few right...

Went class outing yesterday, with B20.. hahaha... then not bad.. went Seoul Garden... very fattening... but never mind.. i had my preparation done... ATE EXTRIM.. hahah... good right.. have to.. i'm like putting on weight.. since the last depression i had... and i need to do this lor.. no choice.. ahahahhahah...

Anyway.. here's what hs said to me... on sms... "Hi Darling.. What are you doing now.. I am having an hour break now.. Wanna tell you that i am missing you terribly.. You got good girl?".. So sweet of him.. hm.. buden.. hm. after i relied.. he ignored.. so sad...
Ah....

Perhaps.. it's just better already.. shouldn't ask for too much right...

~AuRo`Na~
Friday, September 03, 2004

ToRns....

Wednesday, September 01, 2004

I'm so upset... Everytime we see each other, we don't really smile.. or show that we're happy... I believe that deep down inside.. we do love each other... but.. there seems to be so much tension.. and unhappiness between us... Whenever we talk.. there seems to be so much hidden meanings... why are we like that now? can't we even converse properly...? Can't we evern talk like normally.. without any hidden meanings... Why must there always be suaning? i'm getting pissed off.. and very upset... Feel so unwelcomed especially when he doesn't even smile when he see me... Why ask me out for lunch when he walk on his own... like no body's business.. night as well tell me to meet at the canteen.. instead of waiting for me outside the LT.... Might as well go lunching with others.. if he doesn't even feel happy seeing me... Might as well... Ah.... Men=Pigs...

Today, got A(Excellent) for my English proficiency assignment.. 1st assignment.. hm.. should i be proud? or.. haiya.. must have this kinda standard ma.. my whole class all foreigner le.. if don't have.. very xia suai one le... If not then is not that i'm gd lor.. is just that the standard of the class is damn low.... anyway.. must try to eep the standard from now on.. la.. haha....

Life sux...

No one dies a virgin... Cos Life ScrewS U!

~AuRo`Na~
Wednesday, September 01, 2004

hey, dun feel so upset over him girl. sometimes in life, you dun get perfect scenarios. feeling that you are very upset over this (from what i read)... anything you can call me up and talk bout it ya.. will always be there for you..

today in class my lecturer said sth meaningful.. loving somebody is letting that person to be free.. not ordering them to pace in your way, but let them be themselves.. (doesnt mean to ask u to let him go ya).. anyway, take care..

Monica
Tuesday, August 31, 2004 4:37:00 PM